How to disappear completely

Yeah that's what I feel right now. Disappear from this mess I'm in. Well, "mess" isn't exactly the best word to call it, but it'd do for now. It is pretty messed up, after all.

Many issues can be drawn out from this, if you think about it. This isn't just a simple project group anymore, it's much more than that. It's more than a misunderstanding, more than communication breakdown. The point is, this is some of the craziest shit I've ever seen in school. Never did I think people would act this way.

Like I said before, I won't deny I am a last minute kind of person. I can't work without stress, and probably not till the last minute. The other members? Well I think they're far better than me in this aspect. They can do work way before the deadline, I can't. Main point is, no matter when we do the work, we will get it done in the end. Doesn't matter if it's 1 hour or a minute before the deadline, the work will be done.

To what end would you go to get your"justice"? I presume you know the situation clearly, well enough to know who's at fault. Your intentions and your disposition at the time are totally two different matters, don't link them if you can't control your emotions. We didn't need to tell anyone anything. Your actions that day told them everything.

I fail to see how anything you did that day was morally correct. Your intentions, yes. Your actions? No way in hell. If you choose to insist that you are right, I'm prepared to be scribed as your villian. Your story, after all, is none of my concern.

And what's left of it? You've just left an indelible mark upon yourself.

I'm only doing this because the soft approach didn't work. Besides, I'm not counting on you to read this. Like it would even matter, really. Some people just don't listen.

Cavalcade of anger and fear

Steini linked me this, you should take a look.

http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1739601,00.html?cnn=yes

Some of those points mentioned are actually quite true, I think. And using the virtual world as a sort of therapy, who would've thought.

And speaking about people and their qualities, this morning held one occurance which displayed the zenith of varying dispositions.

I'm typing this through the course of 2 hours. (Of course, I'm not just staring at the screen for 2 hours, rather I'm busy with work) Up till this point I can't find the correct words to describe this situation. All I can say is that it looks really bad, people in my class should know.

Perhaps when this rather tense atmosphere has settled down, I shall attempt to write about it.

I should've seen this coming. As if what happened when I awoke wasn't heralding anything. I woke up in a cacophony of noise, of half dead alarm clocks and the drilling sounds of renovation works in the apartment below mine. Needless to say I was half deaf before I even left the house.

School is probably my most dreaded place now. And probably for a long time to come.

Farewell, Allian

I was checking my friends list today on FF and then noticed that Allian left a final message in the game.

"Allian quit - 5/6/08"

I think he's actually using the MM/DD/YY format, so that's 6th May.

I missed the chance for a proper valediction. Guess I wasn't that much of a friend, was I.

I've known him way back since my bard in the 40s. I was actually levelling white mage sub at the time, and got into a party with him and his lousy connection in Qufim. He couldn't zone; everytime he does he goes into a long loading screen and then disconnects.

In any case, he was a good friend. Helped me a lot, particularly with the Evisceration NM and supplying weapons to the dunes.

Good luck out there, Allian.

Silenced

Day 4. Pain gone, but as a counter reaction, I've temporarily lost my voice.

I wonder how tomorrow's presentation will turn out with me in this state. Either it miraculously heals within the next couple of hours, or I continue with his hoarse, deep voice. Creepy even, someone called it.

Past week has been full of tests. They just have to clutter everything within a few days and give us hell.

And, thank you Steini for the songs. X) I haven't yet had a good listen to all of them cause I've been busy, but I'll find some time this week.

Well now, I got slides to prepare for tomorrow.

Miasmatic Monday

Monday sucks. It always does, at least when's there's school. To top it off I got a damn sore throat that hurts like hell. It's been a while since I had my throat act up this bad.

And school always has this effect on me. I don't know, makes me feel lousy over nothing. Couple that with the fact that I got no music to listen to.

I think I really need a new mp3 player or something.

That's pretty much all I'm going to say. In fact, today sucks so much I don't even know why I'm even talking about it.

Something to say?

I got lazy. I want to update, but I keep procrastinating.

I don't think this is actually the best time to be saying something, because I'm sort of worn out after a day of rehearsals and guitar orientation.

And apart from the performance, it was Victor's birthday today. I bought the cake - Belgium Chocolate it was. Had to rush through the rain to get to school before the break was over, because otherwise I'd have missed the chance to get it there when everyone was present. Furthermore, I overslept - in fact I skipped the first two periods, so I take responsibility if I failed to deliver it.

I might be raiding for the first time on LOTRO this Saturday, if my application got through. I don't know, I don't really care if I don't get to join, it's just something to experience.

One last thing, my desktop monitor died out on me. Thankfully I got a laptop, and there's where I'm posting from right now.

Start of a new trial

I completed Trials and Tribulatioins at last.

I ilke the ending, how they rounded everything up quite satisfyingly.

And so I started Apollo Justice. First case was really nice. I'd say it's comparable to 3-1, maybe even better.

4-2 looks to be all right so far. You don't learn much about the defendant on the first day though, and that's the point where I'm up to.

Hmm, what else...

Cabal. I didn't quite enjoy it. It was astonishingly easy to level for the first 35 levels or so. Then it got boring for me. I don't know, never had much interest in it in the first place. I was just trying it out of boredom.

I got lots of catching up to do for guitar. Don't know if they're going to make us perform that piece of music or what, but how the hell do you play a descending passage in thirds that fast. Practice, yes, I know.

And I've been thinking of returning to LOTRO. These recent updates look pretty good, to be honest. I think I'd do that, just to kill time till Warhammer, which has been delayed till fall, comes out. I don't think I've ever talked about LOTRO here, but I played it for a few months last year.

Oh and one last thing. 14 days till NEW 逆転　NOT 裁判. No information regarding the game has been released yet, so it's still pretty much a mystery to everyone. Guess we'll just have to wait and see.

As though nothing ever happened

To some extent, it's true.

Xeo's PC broke down so that explains his disappearance for the past week or so, right after getting his cooking apron from the cooking guild.

I've been playing 9Dragons for most of the break, and for some unknown reason I actually rather enjoy it. It's not often that free online games actually catch my attention for long. I don't know if it's because of the interesting kung fu or what, but yeah, I like it, like I said.

Warhammer Online: Age of Reckoning needs to be released already! I hate to say it, but Final Fantasy XI is getting a little boring after so many years; close to 4 now, I think. And that might be an understatement, because I'm biased.

Well with all that said, I'm looking forward (not) to the remaining 3 weeks of my break.

Just a short update

Steini and Tarfur were brewing beer. XD

And uh, exam results will be released tomorrow. I don't give a damn, really.

Perfect Cadence

I'm finally done with the theory grade 8 exam today. 3 damn hours in a cold room, it couldn't have been any better. Luckily for me my nose didn't act up so much.

I met Xue Li at the entrance after my exam. What a coincidence, considering I'm no longer entered through the school. I switched to a private teacher last year. It wasn't such a surprise to me though, I mean, we were both taking grade 8.

It was fairly easy I think. Question 1 was very fun to play around with the sequences, and question 4 was, hands down, the easiest question I've ever come across. I guess it's safe to say that. I'm going to laugh if I fail that question. Question 5 had me trying to recall single and double reed instruments. I didn't figure it out in the end, I just guessed. 2 and 3 were average. Not the hardest I've seen, and at least the damn tune was easy to hum out. They could've thrown us 6 sharps with lots of accidentals or something, heh that'd have been hell.

Okay I got sort of carried away, but well yeah the exam wasn't so bad.

I watched The Spiderwick Chronicles a few days ago, and I thought it as pretty good. At least, in my opinion, better than The Golden Compass. The tickets were free too, cause I won them from Lime or something. That guy's sister reminds me so much of Karin from Shadow Hearts Covenant, with the rapier and all. And I think she was the only one who did any actual fighting. The rest was all throwing and spraying tomato sauce and stepping on floorboards and stuff like that. Pretty interesting though, and the idea that the ogre would become his father didn't occur to me.

On Phoenix Wright, I slowed down a little. I'm still on case 5 of Trials and Tribulations and things are looking quite interesting right now. I wonder who would be the next few witnesses to appear.

I guess I've said all that I wanted to for now.

Minor 2nd, Perfect 4th down

All these strange fucked up dreams or nightmares I've been having lately...

Must be due to all this lack of sleep for the past week. I mean, it's good to have a wild imagination sometimes, but this is clearly getting out of hand.

Well, believe me, you can't trust your dreams.

17 minutes

17 minutes on the train home.

17 minutes of nothingness, only because there's no seats and it's packed to the brim, so to speak.

At times like these the only thing I can do is try to balance myself the whole time.

I think.

Trials and Tribulations

Case 3-2 clearly demonstrated "Double Jeopardy", whereby a defendant cannot be tried in court again after being declared innocent for a particular crime.

3-3 is about a poisoning incident at a French restaurant. Pretty interesting case, dealing with money and loans and all.

3-4 occurs in the past, and is Mia's first case as a defense attorney. I didn't get to play much of it before my batteries started to die, though. I don't like to play while it's charging, cause I get pretty restricted in terms of movement.

I'm aiming for the last case tonight, but now that I think of it, maybe I don't have the time. I'm going to party with Xeo and Wak on Dragoon. Ah yes, I finally unlocked it a few days ago, and I'm really enjoying it so far. My only gripe is with the wyvern dying to AoE attacks ever so often. It's easy to neglect its HP and wanting to keep going, so sometimes it dies before reaching the 20 minute recast.

Well now that I'm on break, I actually followed a couple of friends to look for a job through an agent. I'm kinda nervous about the whole thing, I don't know how it'd turn out. It keeps flashing through my mind like some pestiferous, uh, thought. Can't settle for a better word right now. Heh, I don't know, all I can do now is wait and see.

Perhaps I'd be more comfortable teaching piano instead. All I need is to get my grade 8 theory certificate. Speaking of which, my theory exam is just 2 weeks away, on 15th March. Am I prepared? I hope I am.

And uh, is it just me or was that thing he wrote kinda sketchy? I get this subtle hint that he's insinuating something about that person. Well, I didn't think it was too hard to catch, but I must commend his effort for trying, even if that wasn't his original implication.

Fragrance of Dark Coffee

Godot's theme is pretty awesome, I have to say. And the orchestral version of it makes it so much more amazing.

I'm currently on case 2 of Trials and Tribulations. Case 1 was rather good, comparing to the previous 2 games first cases. Case 2 so far seems like a pretty interesting change from the normal cases. I won't spoil what it is, but well I don't think it's that hard to guess either.

I got hold my copy of Apollo Justice, so right now it's just sitting there waiting for me.

And in Final Fantasy XI, I think it's finally time I try to unlock Dragoon. Everytime I decided to do it, I'd start having second thoughts about it, because I needed to mine for a dragon egg, then fight a dragon way over at Sandy. I guess I probably wasn't very interested in Dragoon after all, huh, if being able to play the job wasn't even enough motivation to unlock it.

Well now back to more Phoenix Wright.

Examを終わりました

It certainly was a coincidence today. I met the guy who liked the Final Fantasy piece that I played on piano 2 years ago. I didn't stop to chat though. I was too tired and was slightly disoriented after sleeping on the train home.

My last paper was today. I'm glad it's over, for now at least.

I think I finally got the rough idea of riding a bicycle, thanks to everyone's help. I still have some trouble balancing, but hey, it's progress.

I apologize if I dampened anyone's moods at first. To tell the truth, I felt pretty lousy all of a sudden. I figured I wouldn't be able to succeed in learning and didn't want anyone to waste their time trying to teach me, that's why I kinda discounted myself to even rent a bicycle. Call it inferiority complex.

On a much brighter note, Apollo Justice will finally reach stores where I am, tomorrow. That's more than enough motivation to finish up Trials and Tribulations, which I just started this morning, before my exam.

And in a few, I will turn in after a long day of...

Objection!

Exemplification of Deterioration

I should've seen it coming.

Honestly, it was far worse than I thought. That's the reality.

When did school end up like this?

On the spur of the moment

I don't really know what I'm doing anymore.

Why does it dawn on me that what I've done is hyprocritical, why do I get this feeling that you're giving out subtle signs that you hate being "betrayed".

I don't know exactly what I'm doing here.

I wasn't trying to do anything I didn't intend. Somehow, something keeps overwhelming me with possibly irrational thoughts. I wasn't ignoring. Well, I was trying not to ignore. It was totally unachievable.

And on the spur of the moment, I feel I should go back to what I was. I feel like not being associated with anyone would put me in a more advantageous position, where I wouldn't be accused of betraying anyone or being some selfish hypocrite. After all, I never had anything to do with you in the first place, right?

I don't understand why it is so difficult to return to my previous self. Back then I never talked enough to hurt anyone, I never did anything to possibly harm anyone. I never had any usual "friends" I could hang out with, I was always alone.

Alone. I liked the solitude.

But I realized something, there'll come a time where you won't get anywhere by yourself. Which is why I so painstakingly forced myself to talk more, because this is what everyone says. Talk more, you're too quiet. It's not something innate. I couldn't just suddenly be able to talk and converse well with people. In so doing, I think somehow, I forced out any words I could think of, to the extent I don't know I actually trespassed their sensitive zone. I believe I possess some charactersistics identified in the diagnosis of Asperger's Syndrome, and well, I'd say that doesn't help much.

That's when I started Final Fantasy XI. I didn't need to converse with people face to face. I could do so online, represented by my alter-ego, my character in the game. It's safe to say the game changed my life a lot, because I met a lot of people I couldn't meet otherwise. Many people actually had an impact on me, many I respected or just had lots of fun with. It also changed my view on things and the world, made me more open-minded and more familiar with things I wouldn't know being cooped up in this country.

I guess my topic kinda strayed a little. What was my topic to begin with anyway?

Ah yes, talking about Final Fantasy XI sparked me up, I don't really feel all that lousy anymore. But my point still remains. This isn't just a one-time thing. It's a recurring event, and it's bound to catch me off guard at some point.

I don't know what'll happen then. Meh, I shouldn't even think about it.

On the bright side, 2 papers down, only Java left. And then a 2 month break.

I'm willing to bet peoples' dispositions will change once our second year begins. It was never set in stone anyway, eh?

Can I even say anything?

Tell me the definition of a friend, because I think, I've gotten the whole concept wrong.

Or should I say, your definition.

I don't want to care about all these little things, because honestly, they are ubiquitous. Precisely so that I want to ignore it. But some people just have to bring up all these petty annoyances every single time.

While I agree different people have different definitions of the word 'friend', I'm sorry to say that yours might be a little far-fetched.

I'll tell ya what I think, I'd say it's jealousy. Jealous that someone just stole your precious gems away from you for a day or so. And no, I never signed my name against the slip of the anti-hero in your story.

Whatever it is, don't end up doing stupid things that only you can think of. And don't say I didn't warn you.

Yeah, I'm gonna ignore whatever foolish acts you're gonna draft up.

I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes.

Hold it!

Professor Layton and the Curious Village for the DS will be released today.

9 more days to Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney...

...And 8 days to my first paper.

I like how games I want are being released during the exam period. It's almost as if its mocking me. Though exam or not, I'm still going to buy them.

The soundtrack of Folklore is pretty good, in my opinion. Many tracks manage to set an atmosphere that is haunting and somewhat creepy, yet mystically beautiful. I am able to picture how certain events play out just by the stories drafted by the music, and I haven't even played the game. Definitely going to get this game when I get my Playstation 3.

Studying would commence soon. Damn these exams, spoiling my holiday mood.

Hmm...

Y'know sometimes I let what I say to people bother me. "Sometimes" might even be an understatement.

Perhaps being too frank or sarcastic sometimes just doesn't cut it. I mean, it's possibly because of the people's reactions and how they take your words. These kind of responses, verbal or non-verbal, somehow overwhelm me pretty easily. And in your subconsciousness, it keeps telling you, yeah you've just messed up.

Though of late I've been able to overcome this with lesser effort, I can't say that these feelings have totally dissipated. I don't think it's aberrant either.

I wonder if anyone else have this kind of feeling, the feeling of thinking you're lousy just because you think that you've screwed someone over, even though it didn't matter to that someone (but you don't know whether it did).

Well, just something that came to mind.

Reprise

Been a while.

I just decided to change this whole damn thing to a simpler looking page.

So about a year has gone by, with a shitload of events. I'm not going to list them all. In fact, my mind is pretty blank right now. For some reason this always happens when I type.

Final Fantasy XI has remained rather stagnant for me. The number of times I've logged in for the past few months can probably be counted using my own two hands. Most of my in-game friends have either quit and/or gone to WoW. In fact, if it wasn't for Xeo's second return to the game, I don't think I'll still be talking about it. I just leveled Dancer with his Black Mage a few days ago.

School has been what it's supposed to be. It kills people, I tell ya. Projects and tests are armed with a whole array of weapons, and the people don't make it any better half the time. Well, school does have its fair share of enjoyable moments, though, I'll give it that much.

There's this classmate of ours that we've decided to beleaguer with sarcasm all the time. I was probaby off my head, but I enjoyed it so much, it was literally an all-out assault yesterday.

Wrong time to be up, I'd say. I forgot what day it is.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone.

.hack//G.U. Vol.2 Reminsce

11 more days. Plus a few additional days for it to arrive in Singapore.

Well I'm at school right now I don't even know what else to say.

Linkshells...

Now, I know if the members of Deosil find and read this they'd probably kill me, but meh.

To tell the truth, I tossed the linkshell. Intentionally. I couldn't stand how things were in the LS. I tossed it once before, but someone asked for my return. Tossed it for the second time now, and I'm never going back. I go out of my way to raise some people, and nobody gives a fuck when I die. It's not like I actually beg people to raise me, because it really don't matter, but when I do ask the least you could do is give a damn response.

I don't know exactly what happened a couple days ago, but from Xeo told me, I knew that shit was happening in the LS. Stuff about whining about people talking behind their backs and threatening to quit the game because of it. I'm glad I'm not in it anymore.

I tossed one LS, and I joined another, with good reason too. An old friend of mine is the leader of this Gods/HNM linkshell, so I joined it. I was given a chance to be a sack holder too. Hope this LS goes well, and that everyone gets something good out of it and stay happy.

Well, time to take a nap. The first sky farming event is in about 6 hours.

This is not worthy of a title

Might need a Raise III for this now. It's been what, 2 months since I last came on here?

So I got my results for 'O' levels, entered Nanyang Polytechnic blah blah...

Basically, back to school. Honestly, is there even anything to talk about?

Been on FFXI as usual for the past few months. The return of Xeo is probably the only reason I'm even playing the game anymore. I mean, I did make a couple of new friends since really getting back into the game. Slayerofdark and Athenor, just to name 2, but they're both no longer playing FFXI. Athenor quit apparantly of real life issues, and Slayerofdark, well, just disappeared one day.

After giving up on Blue Mage because I didn't have sea access, I waited for Xeo and some others in our "semi-static" to catch up with my 60 Red Mage, then started leveling that. Got it to 70 before saying argh fuck this. Besides, I didn't have good gear for it. No way in hell am I gonna buy a Penitent's Rope or Jet Seraweels for it.

So I put Red Mage aside and re-geared up Bard, probably the only job I really like.

As I type this, it starts raining, and I get a sudden memory loss. Ah, don't you just love forgetting what you had in mind just a SECOND ago...

Raise II?

Well well. Looks like I left this for dead once again.

Took up Japanese for 3 weeks now. I'm on the 4th, and I believe, the last for the basic course. No more long boring bus rides! Seriously, I fell alseep on the bus on the first day, and well, ended up somewhere else. Ahaha...

So days before Christmas last year, a whole bunch of friends came back to FFXI. And once that happened, naturally, I started playing more of it. Xeo came back after quitting for months or something, maybe a year. Made some new friends as well while leveling Blue Mage and Ninja.

It looks like I might have a chance to join an end-game LS for once, after nothing for 2 years. First Jakal asked me to apply in Anduril, but I read the reqirements and stuff and it said that bards needed at least CoP8-2 and above. I'm on 2-5, and completing 6 CoP chapters anytime soon is fucking impossible. Another one was introduced to me by Deathseeker. This one well, he gave me the site, but I couldn't access it... which brings me to right now. Bills didn't get through for the month, so I can't log in at all. I can't ask anyone anything.

Hmm... I just realized that the two people mentioned above are huge enemies in Ballista, so it seems.

The new "Salvage" thing was pretty fun. Kinda like Dynamis and Limbus, people say, but I don't know I've never done any of those. You are thrown into this area for like 100 minutes. They seal off all of everyone's job abilities, sub-jobs and magic, and also strip you of your equipment, lower your stats and HP/MP. So basically all you have at the start is to use H2H to attack... which makes Monks really useful in there. Of course, any other job with H2H skills work, like THF for example. Oh, and healing items like Hi-Potions are absolutely vital.

As you fight through the area, some of the mobs drop items which unseal a given part, like say, one unlocks the usage of magic, and another unlocks body equipment, stuff like that. Some mobs also drop the items needed for the new awesome Salvage gear. I don't know much after that, cause we didn't make it far with only 6 of us. We got booted in the area where the Flans were.

I've been leveling Puppetmaster as well. It's kinda fun, cause it's one job where I didn't need to rest once up till the 10s. Just fight, and automaton cures when on how HP, then activate Dark Maneuver so that MP is refreshed. Well that's how it goes for the most part. I do use Stoneskin and Flash and other maneuvers like that.

Well anyway, I need my content ID reactivated...

Before I die, heh.

Change

FFXI isnt like what it used to be.

It feels different. I don't know is it because of the drop in population, or the fact that my friends list is dead. The linkshell is so damn empty. The only people I see in there are mostly Schinn and Nadia, for the last couple of weeks. Sure, I ballista'd with Schinn about two weeks ago, but where the hell is everybody else!

I don't really want to quit anymore. I spent way too much time on it to just throw it away like that. At worst, I'm just gonna leave it there as it is, without deleting it. What a fool I am.

Then, boom. I suddenly feel dizzy and am unable to type further.

omgwhatareyoudoingstopthat

No Suitable Title

Yay for revival post. It's been more than a month since I touched this thing. And who cares anyway. It feels more like I'm talking to myself than actually letting other people read this. I don't even know.

But anyway, I'm bored and just want to put down whatever thoughts in here.

So I went to Australia and back and find myself bored again. There's going to be fewer and fewer new games to play on my PS2 since the PS3 is here, which of course I'm not going to buy. The price is insane. On the bright side, the DS has a couple of good games which are gonna be released. The remake of FFVI is one of them.

I'm surprised Willis actually bought me one of the pillows' albums 'GOOD DREAMS' from Japan. I mean, being that I can't find any of their albums here, and I spent like a year looking for one, to no avail, I just hinted to him to help me look for it. He didn't respond to it. But he bought one anyway, and I'm thankful.

Okay, what else.. thank you Steini for sending the song by Destroyer. It's a nice song.

And, a gathering yesterday with some P6 classmates. Some of us ended up watching Eragon. I was fooled because I didn't know it was part of a trilogy. I know it was a book, just not one part of three. So the ending.. well, it'd be how you'd feel if you thought it was one complete story. And what that is, I don't know.

And just because everyone in the world is asking how're the exams, I'd say I did okay. What can I say anyway, I'm gonna get full marks? Piece of shit. I didn't even study.

I'm trying to keep myself busy so as not to go insane with boredom. So I've bought some books, leveling on FFIII, and taking up Japanese soon. And I'm also trying to figure out Swimming, a song by Sunset Rubdown, on the piano. Seemingly fiendishly difficult, but I try.

I think that's about it. My mind's blank right now.

School Ends

Farewell assembly.

So, it's goodbye, eh?

I never knew this day would come so quickly.

Not like it matters though.

The friends I have are next to nothing.

Well anyway,

"Forgotten, but not lost"

Yeah, from Kingdom Hearts II.

What?

Damn haze. And the watchamacallit virus outbreak in my school.

They closed the canteen for the rest of the year, and gave us biscuits on the very first day they did that.

We're not kindergarten children! And it was those biscuits that caused me to get a fever.

And now the haze. My sore throat ain't going to recover.

Also Sprach Zarathustra again

Hmm? About damn time I type something...

Really impressed with Xenosaga Episode III after completing it again, only this time in English.

The voice acting was awesome. Maybe except Kevin, who sounded a bit off to me at first. Canaan sounded a little too emotional for a Realian.

Upon further listening, Forgotten Sacntuary ain't all that bad. And Outrageous as well. I liked the version which was played during the Erde Kaiser Sigma fight.

I've been neglecting my chocobo in FFXI for four days now. Heh, at least there's basic care programme to take care of it. Or him, should I say, for it's a male. Quick grow up so I can ride around!

Can't think of anything else. >_>

Xenosaga Episode III: Also sprach Zarathustra

Well, I finally bring myself to type something here because... it's been more than a month.

Xenosaga Episode III is impressive, after the rather mediocre episode II. The battle system is a huge improvement from the previous game. The story, well... I don't know much of it cause it's Japanese. Just bits here and there. But judging from the cutscenes alone I guess it's good. Only thing that wasn't up to my standards was the music. The battle themes are okay, except maybe the E.S. ones. Some other themes were taken from the older themes in the last episode.

At this point I'm only done with disc 1, so I don't know how it'll progress yet, but from what I've seen so far, I dont' think disc 2 will disappoint.

I watched Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest yesterday. Why I watched it, I don't know. I didn't even watch the first of the series.

Well then, dinner awaits...

In the Sky

Finally. Third day of the Conquer 'O's, and also the second last day. No more waking up early, at least for the next three weeks.

Been playing Grandia III for the past week. I only say it's good because the only other Grandia game I played was Xtreme, and it was kind of lacklustre. The only thing which compelled me to complete it was the amazing battle system. Yes, it was the only good thing about the game. And Xtreme is a dungeon-brawl more than anything else.

Well, enough of Xtreme. Grandia III started out rather strong, because I was really drawn into it for the most of the first disc. The initial party members were also very interesting. I'm talking about Miranda and Alonso here, haha.

But on the second disc, the story seemed to have less of an impact. And the final area didn't amaze me much. The villains weren't established properly. You don't even get to know his name until the last few cutscenes of the game.

Yet, above all, the battle system is really great. It is what makes Grandia III fun.

Helped Shadowwolf get some of his Blue Magic spells. Some were seriously a pain to get. I guess it all comes at a price. Since they're all free, SE can't make it easy to learn.

Oh yeah, for today's composition test, my mind was rather blank. Until I got an idea from the story of Grandia III. Heh, sometimes game ain't all that bad.

Right now, tired as hell. Night.

Er... Whatever

Day off yesterday, so I practically devoted the entire day to FFXI.

Woke at 7AM, and by 9 I was already in a TP Burn party. Shortly after it ended, I joined a Manaburn party. Got 74, and we disbanded. And then it was lag time in Besieged. Another one happened shortly after. 2 more TP Burns after that. By then it was exactly 12 midnight.

All that for a total of about 64,000 exp.

Good. It's the last day of school tomorrow. Minus the Conquer 'O's and whatnots, that is.

Verklempt... XD

Electrolysis is such a wonderful topic.

I mean, seriously, I don't understand a damn thing about it. As for the test, I can safely say that I'll get less than 5, over 25.

Today one of my friends was like... I'll ransack your bag since you're ransacking mine. Don't even ask why I was ransacking it. And he found the book I hadn't returned to him in months. All of a sudden he's like, WTF did you do to my book!? I stared at it for a while, and was thinking, "eh, it's just the bottom corner of the spine, you know, when you place it in your bag for too long and the edge starts crumbling a little..." So yeah, whatever. He just got mad, really mad. And exclaimed "You shall not be forgiven!", and left.

Right, I see...

No honestly, I don't get it. Like maybe he developed an emotional attachment to the book or something, I don't know. Whatever it is, right now, I don't give a damn. I just want to rant, and then forget about it. >.>

The new Digimon Savers looks pretty good. I like how the anime begins. It looks promising. Heh, it should be, after all the people did to make Bandai continue the production with Digimon. I signed the petition too.

Ah, just the other day I recall standing outside of the classroom during English lessons. Obviously, it's a punishment, but I liked it. It's more breezy and airy. And we don't have to sit in the dreadful room, listening to the teacher go on and on with a boring teaching method. But I doubt this so called punishment is any worse than what some of the others had had.

Right now, bored. Logging into FFXI in a while, I guess.

Later.

Nocturnal

I wanted to take a nap in the afternoon today after returning home from school, but I ended up sleeping...

Until 9P.M.

Bah, now I can't sleep.

I missed lunch, I almost missed dinner, and even then I didn't eat much.

Heh, can't be more excited when SquareEnix has officially announced Final Fantasy XIII for PS3. It's still a long way though.

Wanted to add a link to that, but this Blogger server doesn't seem to work well right now. Had to refresh 5 times to get to the sign in page, and another 10+ just to type this. Now I wonder if it'll even get through. >.>

Peace.

The Past and Pending

Been busy leveling Blue Mage lately, no time to get on here. Haven't gotten very far though. Still at 23, because it's hard to get a party with the shit loads of blue mages on the server. "Blue-burn" works, but I never liked to be the one who starts a party. But well, it's a fun job.

Partied with my bard for the first time in like 5 months. Kinda messed up the macros at the beginning, but gradually got the momentum. We camped at moon, but the EXP. wasn't too good. It was a nice for a start though; no deaths and all that.

Martin logged on for the first time in months. Was sure glad to see him. Too bad the new expansion is not released in Europe yet (according to him).

Biology test tomorrow, but I don't feel like studying. Just came back from piano masterclass, and my mood is just not there. >.> Actually, I don't even feel like doing anything. <.< Bah.

Off topic, The Past and Pending by The Shins is a really good song... =D

Sanctuary

Changed the lyrics. It's none other than Sanctuary by Utada Hikaru, used in the game Kingdom Hearts II.

Oh yeah, about the game, I finally completed it last week. Seriously though, I could've dragged on for two or more weeks, but I forced myself to just see the ending at least once before going back to complete all the optional stuff. Just a while back, I was finishing up on all the GummiShip routes. And thanks to the "doughnut ship", was able to defeat the final boss of "Assault of the Dreadnought" without much trouble.

Sephiroth is so much easier than in KH, at least for me. His defense has seemingly dropped. At least, Fenrir was worth it. Might I add, hooray for his clear pronounciation. Descend, Heartless Angel!

And I guess, in a way, I've decided not to entirely quit FFXI. It's not really because of the expansion, but more of a personal choice. Feels kind of wasteful to put it down now, even though it may be just as stupid to continue. Whatever.

Well, it's not long before the expansion is released. *Starts another countdown*

K for Kingdom, H for Hearts

Finally got the game four days after its original release date. I'm currently at the part before the 1000 heartless battle. Ah, 1000... that's a shitload, I must say. Still, with the nifty Reaction Commands, it'll make it faster.

Also, I got the guidebook today. Feels kinda like a waste of money, seeing how I managed to get this far without one. But, I just had to have it. The guidebook's extremely thick. I think it even surpasses Star Ocean: Till the End of Time.

The final thing to mention is that I finally watched V for Vendetta. Heh, it's a nice movie. Just look at that whole building go KABOOM while Tchaikovsky's 1812 Overture(is it?) plays in the background.

Well, too tired to talk about anything else.

POTION

Ah, at last. I've finally decided to try out the new Final Fantasy XII POTION drink. According to some website, it's supposed to taste like Royal Jelly with some other herbs. Personally I've never taken Royal Jelly, so I don't know for sure. Though what it tasted like for me, was a "honey orangy lime" taste. (Ugh, don't really know how to say it, but meh whatever.) And yeah, there's a slight herbal taste to it. It's a little sour and bitter at first, but the aftertaste is kinda sweet. I guess the more important thing is the sweet, refreshing aftertaste, so the initial strange taste doesn't seem so bad after all.

Well, that was how it tasted, at least, for me. Unless my tastebuds are failing me or something.

Hope they'll sell the normal bottle here soon. Can't wait to drink more of it, heh.

5 more hours to the release date of Kingdom hearts 2! (Ignore the fact that shops don't open at midnight.) I don't think I can sleep tonight...

Shadow Hearts: From the New World

Ugh, stupid Purgatory. There I was at floor B6 preparing for the last boss before Envious Jealousy. Unequipped the Warning Device right before heading into the boss's room, and the moment I got out of the menu screen, boom, got an encounter - surrounded by the enemy. Naturally, the damn mobs double-comboed me to death. 3 hours worth of playtime gone just like that. Sigh, should've known better.

Oh well. 2 more days to Kingdom Hearts 2...

Dead Fingers Talk

Yes, the battle theme for the first half of Shadow Hearts: From the New World. I hated it when I first heard it while watching some gameplay videos. But out of the game, on its own, it's really good. Definitely something which surpassed the last two games.

Final Fantasy XII actually got a perfect review score by Weekly Famitsu. Hmm... so it really is that good. Well, 6 more days to its release, so I'll wait till then.

18 more days... (I don't need to say what it's for anymore...)

Ah, finally. It's the weekend. Well, sort of. A mere week of pathetic holidays...

Time to hit the sack.

Keep Tryin' - Utada Hikaru

Nothing much has been going on lately. I wouldn't consider school as part of the "something new", I mean, it's the same routine everyday. For me, at least.

Okay, well, I changed the lyrics. This time it's the ending song of the main storyline in Tales of Legendia. Some people hate it. Sure it may be the typical love ballad found in RPGs, but I like it.
I just started on the Character Quests part of the game. Nerifes was really difficult. ><>< Oh well.

Oh, Final Fantasy XII will be released next Thusday. (Japanese one, duh) Frankly, I'm not that interested. I don't really like the new battle system, and it's not that I'm not used to it. Everyone could cast magic in the demo version. Where's the "every character is unique" factor? Seems like there would be weapon skills, but I prefer limit breaks or just a unique battle command. Hopefully it isn't like that in the game itself. Can't form any conclusions when the game hasn't even been released. I'm guessing that the story is a good one.

Sigh... Where's my Kingdom Hearts II... Argh, 21 more days!

Waiting , waiting...

What!? Final Fantasy XII is going to be the last of the series? Someone posted that in a forum... is it for real?

I doubt that, though...

Oh, and 27 more days to the release of Kingdom Hearts 2!

Blah blah blah

Approximately 31 days until the release of Kingdom Hearts II.

Grandia III seems nice, but I know I won't have time to complete it by the time KH2 is released.

Sigh. School is so hectic, nothing to say about it. Except maybe our class play, which turned out much better than I thought. Okay, well, looking at the script, it was quite okay, but the acting part is a totally different story. As in it was really good.

Right. I'm running out of things to say, so goodbye.

Tales of Legendia

Bought it last night.

So far, 10 hours into the game, it's not too bad. Overall story progression is okay, though some parts of the dialougue seem a little slow. Battle system is rather interesting, considering this is the first "Tales of" series for me.

And well, my cold developed (developed!?) into a fever for the weekend. Head's been heavy all day and nose is almost always blocked. Haha... And I could still play games in the state I was in...

Well anyway, now that I'm okay, I better start on the shitload of homework. Else I'm boned.

5 stars, maybe...

I Not Stupid Too is a really great movie.

It is something that us teenagers can relate to so much. Or should I say, Singaporean teenagers. The movie has its fair share of touching and funny moments. It's placed in a way like this - just when are you on the edge of tears, they throw in a funny part. And it happens in reverse. Still, they're quite well blended.

It's a movie with lots of lessons and positive-thinking values. Having a rotten people doesn't mean you have to throw it away; cut off the rotten part and it's still edible. (Well, something along the lines of that... It's not exactly how they said it.) There's also something about finding the key to the locked door in your life. It remains locked unless you bother to make an effort to find the key. And find more chances to look at the good side of a person, not always pinpointing the bad points. After all, no one in this world is wholly good or wholly bad.

I would recommend everyone to watch it; more so if you're a teacher or parent. (Heh heh...)

See red yet?

Yesterday and today are rather boring, I must say.

Second day of Chinese New Year was spent at my grandparents' place, and uncle's actually. Well they live just a few houses apart. So there was this lion dance troupe that they invited, and I sat so close to it that after it ended I was partially deaf. Yeah I was being stupid. And I didn't really know my cousins well, never really talked to them in my life, so I just sat in a corner. Under the sun, might I add, while they were in the house.

Rest of the morning and late afternoon was dedicated to TV-watching. MTV Asia, AXN, StarWorld. I was constantly switching between them and pausing when something was of interest.

Well for today I rounded up my money and set off for the game shop. I just had to buy something. Stared at the japanese version of Kingdom Hearts 2, priced at s$102! The shopkeeper reccomended the new Dragon Quest, but I didn't like the characters in there, so I averted my view towards Tales of Legendia for awhile, but dang, it's japanese too. Finally I set my mind on Final Fantasy IV Advance. It's definitely not the best among those, but well, I haven't even played it before, it wouldn't hurt.

Maybe I should have waited a little longer. Within the next few months, it'll be the arrival of a whole bunch of games... Ugh, I almost forgot I'm still paying for FFXI. It's driving me bankrupt.

Gonna have "Chinese New Year withdrawal syndrome", as termed by a friend of mine. XD

Corsair

Ah, it's Chinese New Year's Eve.

SquareEnix has revealed another job in the new expansion, Treasures of Aht Urhgan. It's the Corsair, who wields a "6-barrel gun" and apparantly has luck-based abilities. Looks cool, but I'm still more interested in the Blue Mage. Don't know if I'll still be playing when that time comes, though...

Temporarily out of games at home... So damn bored.

Oh well, looking forward to the dinner tonight.

Just Another Rambling

The Math test didn't turn out so bad. At least I didn't fail.

Flag day was... Bad. I mean, after all these events involving NKF, who would want to donate? People avoided, pretended to be on the phone, fumbling with their bags, or looked away entirely, like I wasn't there. I can't blame them though, but, sigh... Us students were made to do it. It's not like we had a choice.

Yet there were still exceptionally generous people on that day. I remember the Caucasian who winded down his car window to pass me $4 while stopping at the traffic light. No, don't get me wrong, I did NOT go tapping at cars, asking for donations. Rather, he did it voluntarily. There, a perfect example of a kind heart. I couldn't help but smile as I placed the notes into my seemingly empty tin. The two notes were all that were needed to make the tin heavy, heavy enough.

Naturally, with it being so light, it was sure to be rejected. I told them I had already tried my best, as should every other student tell them that. Well as long as you really have, and you know it, who cares? Of course I said that there were notes in there. She greatly doubted me, and asked another helper to check with the torchlight.

Yet, even with the notes, she still asked me to go for another round. I had had enough. This isn't supposed to be forced voluntarism or donations for that matter. I said, "If you all really need the money, I'll whip up $10", looking straight into her eyes. For a moment there, she seemed stunned, but then again, they couldn't possibly accept my money at that time, I guess. She gave a slight nod, signaling approval of the tin. Booya!

Of course they would want more money in the tins... they earn more commision, don't they? I'm not exactly sure, correct me if I'm wrong. And donations... it's entirely up to the person whether they want to donate, you can't force them or anything.

I guess the worst part of it was when my friend came across two elderly women, who walked right past him without donating, and said loudly in Hokkien, "Cheat people one lah". Oh well...

This is how the society is. If it was perfect, there would be no need for this; people would come forward by themselves to donate. Welcome to the real world. Hmph.

A 15 Minute Ride

Bro spent 7 days in the hospital.

Mom stayed with him, all the while. Day and night.

House was managed by me, kinda. I didn't do much, but I won't say I didn't do anything either.

To the hospital and back from it - everyday. Pains me to see someone as young as him in this state.

And now, my 'rents are sick.

You ask me why I failed my math test - how could I possibly concentrate?

You don't understand the current situation.

Can't study for the test. House is in a mess.

Is a life or a test more important?

Don't blame me if I fail. I'm not sacrificing a life for high marks in a mere test.

Heartless fools. People are sick here, and there you complain, criticize. Aggravate the matter; add on the pressure.

Say you don't know me. Don't fucking care if I die. Become non-existant. Invisible, ignored.

Fine. I'll mark your words.

And the source of all problems is back.

Can't possibly go on like this...

Rainwater

Finally plucking up some courage, I've decided to log back on FFXI after like, a month. Or rather, it's a risk or letting myself being bored to death.

I've kinda lost touch with playing bard already. Has anything changed? I don't know. I don't have any friends playing as bard, either. It's more like they ask me instead. So I think I will refrain from getting into any parties for the time being, though I know that won't help. Anyway, there's a whole horde of new bards all rising in levels into the mid 60s to 70s range, it's rather difficult getting a party at "peak" hours.

Well I don't want to affect other people if I don't know what I'm doing. I didn't play bard in hopes of getting a dynamis or HNM LS easily, and it definitely wasn't because of the large number of invites. I play it because I like how a bard works in the party, not physically attacking monsters, but rather buffing allies and debuffing mobs. Sure it gets repetitive, but I like it. Heh. And I would say that I'm just an average bard; I'm always short on gil. I spend more time PLing friends, and when I myself need one, they all disappear. XD

When it's time for me to quit, I wonder who to give all my stuff to. An old friend? Or maybe a random person down the streets of Lower Jeuno? Split it up and roughly divide it with the LS peeps? Or decide that "My stuff is going down with me!"? Still contemplating...

Hmm... Kingdom Hearts 2, I'm still waiting. Maybe I'll just buy the Japanese version and spoil all the fun.

Oh, and I can't believe AMK Central's McDonalds actually ran out of curry sauce last night! Ahaha. But it's fine, I could make do without it.

Yeah well, peace out.

"New" Year?

First week of school was okay, to say the least. But well, the word "okay" is being abused by us, kinda. It seems like an acceptable response to most questions, although in this sense "most" isn't really as much as it seems. Duh.

I guess I'm all alright for the change in teachers. They don't affect me much, but there are exceptions, however.

Had quite a shock and a rather pleasant surprise this afternoon. Stepping out of the class, I saw someone dressed in casual wear heading towards our classrooms. Well yeah, it's obviously a visitor, or so it seems. But I found her hair strikingly familiar, and asked myself, is that Alev? Yup, right on.

Sigh, how I wished I could have stayed on longer to chat with her, but due to Biology Practical lessons after school, it didn't allow me to. Dang. It turns out that she's currently here on holiday. She did say that life in Canada is much better than here, and about how she's getting high grades for Math there (like 90+), and only a mere pass when she used to live here (A mere 52, according to her). And yeah, I remember that quite well. I kinda trudged my way down for lunch after the short meeting. Oh, and yes, she did remember me. Eh heh, that's nice to know.

Well I thought I should talk about it here, cause I just had a sudden urge. It's unique to me, in a sense. It's not everyday that this happens. Yeah, like duh, again. Oh well...

I finally got down to completing Suikoden IV after a month or so. Well the ending wasn't too shabby, but not the greatest I've seen. And I played through the Dot Hack games again, out of boredom or whatever. Maybe because the new trilogy is within a month of its release date. Ah yes, that and Kingdom Hearts 2. Though the latter is sometime in March. It should be worth the wait, I hope.

Well I've said what I wanted to say. So have a good day. Or night.

The End is Near...

End of the year, that is.

While Japanese players get to enjoy and go crazy over Kingdom Hearts 2, every other person who didn't get it imported will have to wait for another 3 months or so. Sigh.

Finally done getting 100% completion in Final Fantasy X-2. It was during my second playthrough that I realized that I had forgotten to watch the scenes at the Chocobo Ranch via the CommSphere.

Not been up to anything lately in FFXI. At most, I was on only twice during the past month. Well thrice, if I count in today.

Argh.

Time flies, indeed.

Been a while.

But well, there's nothing much to talk about. I've been sick for like, 2 weeks and for the most part, was plenty bored.

And so I went ahead to max out stats in FFX, and oversouled every fiend through Via Infinito in FFx-2. And ugh, I'm at 99% completion. Where's the freaking 1% I missed!

Now, with less than 2 weeks left until school reopens, I wonder if I should get some work done. But the sight of books... Ugh.

My left ear is apparently "blocked". You know how sometimes it happens, and when you yawn and "pop", it clears itself. But it isn't working for me this time. It's been four days now, and I still can't hear things clearly.

Anyway, time for breakfast.

Later.

Hail to the Thief...

Steini quit FFXI today, once again.

Sigh...

And it seemed like just yesterday that we were all having fun partying.

Axl vanished without a trace. Martind, don't know where the heck he is now. Shadowwolf has most likely quit. Dikar, well, I don't know either. Finnh, rarely see him nowadays. Who's next?



Well let's not think too much, it's just a game after all. The real person is still there.

On to other things, Radiata Stories is rather difficult, I must say. With time progression according to a clock, featuring day and night, which affect the appearances of NPCs, it makes it hard to be able to recruit people within the so called given time, and to do some other things. Makes it feel that I'm rushing to the station for the very last train of the month.

The battle system is very similar to Star Ocean: Till the end of Time, which was really good. Certain things have been slightly altered, though. You can press X to guard in battle. Other stuff like side stepping is somewhat in there, but you can only jump back this time. Assigning of different attacks to form combos make it so that you actually button-mash for the most part of battle. And it's really frustrating to hear the characters keep shouting "All right!" during battle and post battle. I think I've heard it more than a hundred times already.

Featuring lots of characters to recruit, like Suikoden, is not neccessarily a good thing. Most of the characters are junk, lousy to use in battle, and you "don't actually need them". Coupled with the day and night system, it gets really frustrating to attempt to even hunt down all of them.

Well I shall play on to see how it goes, and hopefully, it goes on the right path. It shouldn't be too bad.

Suikoden IV

That's the game I have been playing within the past week.

It's an awesome game. I completely changed my view about Suikoden once I played this. The bad impression I had gotten was from the previous game in this series, Suikoden III, because in my opinion, it was bad. I regretted buying it.

Now, with 108 characters you can recruit, one can't complain about the lack of characters. (Although, in actual fact, only about 56 can be used in battle.) The only probelm with having so many characters, is that it's hard to make everyone fit well into the story. Some join because someone else they know is on board the ship. Still, I think that's quite a minor problem.

Story wise, it's okay. Nothing too simple or complicated. Gameplay is good. You're sure to be kept busy if you're trying to level them all to 99. Most characters join by just talking to them through the course of the game, while you fight bosses and need to meet certain requirements for others. This, overall, balances out so you won't find recruiting characters boring or a chore. But then again, you only need to use a few of the lot to successfully complete the game.

Definitely one of the better RPGs I've played so far. Planing on trying out Radiata Stories next. Hopefully it'll be good.

Fire... On Fire

Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today. Well, it's yesterday now, seeing it's already 1A.M. About time.

Best of the 4 so far?

Maybe... It's just too bad many they cut out many parts from the book. Like the Quidditch World Cup, all we see is the entrance of the players, and that's it. It jumped straight to the Dark Mark part. What about the part where Rita was turned into a beetle? Well anyway, she isn't too important a character. Just that the book could bring out much much more of her obnoxious ways. More like the Quick Quotes Quill, actually.

Damn. Lot's of nice movies coming up this holidays. Gotta catch 'em all! Ugh... the phrase from Pokemon. And games too. Loads of RPGs going to be released.

Honestly, holidays...

Is there anything else to talk about?

Nope.

Finally Getting Somewhere

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire opens today. Haven't received any messages from friends about watching the movie. Well then, it looks like I'll be going alone, if need be.

Finally got back to leveling bard after months. And thanks to the frequent deaths, white mage sub will be gimped very soon. Now halfway to 71, and luckily I had done genkai 5 earlier.

Ligerzero, did you quit again? That would probably be a yes, considering that he sent me all his gil and some crystals and equipment. But what nice timing! I desperately need the gil for all the expensive bard JSE in another 2 levels.

Rickimaru, Jakal and me went about to do Zilart Mission 5, the parts which required killing mobs. We did the ones in Behemoth's Dominion and through Ifrit's Cauldron. And yes, it was just us three. Something called the "kiting" method, where you cast gravity on the mob, run a distance ahead and nuke, while throwing in the occasional bind. I am the one keeping them refreshed with ballad.

For the ones in Cape Terriggan and Sanctuary of Zitah, we had additional help. A paladin, a monk and a black mage. We handled the mobs perfectly well, despite websites saying that you need a ninja tank.

Time to do the other parts, solo.

Sayonara

I've decided to give up on Promyvion-Holla. I'm tired of failing loads of times, of gathering all the people with suitable jobs. I don't want to touble those whom I know. They've done them all, and they don't want to go through all of this again. I understand how they feel. I would rather realize that it is my loss, for not having enough luck or whatsoever, than to make people feel as though I'm so desperate that I forced them to help me.

Went to the airport to send someone off this morning. I guess seeing them leave with a smile doesn't make me feel all that sad. I couldn't cry; tears just wouldn't come out. Not to say that I was happy to see her go, but this sense of joy just came over me, because of, well, some problematic situations going on here. Nothing beats being able to be free of it. Well, Yuni, good luck. Even if I forget you someday, the memory won't be lost, ever. It's deep within your heart; you just have to find it, as Sora of Kingdom Hearts had said.

I returned home in less-than-high spirits.

I just realized. I'm the only asian in the linkshell. You know, maybe I shouldn't be there. If only it wasn't for my first mentor...

You don't need to know.

Nuances

Okay. So we're supoosed to go to this website stated on the math worksheet, and do whatever's inside? Apparantly, it's not working. It says here... it's being hosted in a different location, and they need... donations? That's the most I make out of it. But it comes down to this - I'm not going to do it. Not when you gave us a faulty address to begin with!

So that's one task down. Now I have to type two letters explaining for the day that I was absent for Conquer 'O'. Formal letter format, with parent to initial on it. And the content is just going to be like, two lines.

Feeling kind of depressed today. What is wrong with me? It's not like anything happened.

Logged on to FFXI for a minute or so, noticed how everyone else was perfectly blended in through the chat log. Uh huh, I'm Asian, Singaporean to be more exact. I speak Chinese, and for whatever reason, people in the game have such fear of chinese-speakers. Or loathe them, as a matter of fact. Why indeed? Because, the moment they see Chinese, they associate it with gil-sellers, and gil-sellers are widely hated by people all around. Why again? Because they sell gil, and make the game unfair for everyone else.

Look at all those people with "perfect" gear. Whether they really went through infinite hours of farming or through HNMs, or merely bought the gil, I don't know. No one will know, unless they tell us. But you can be quite sure that someone who completely doesn't know what he is doing, but surprisingly decked out in stuff like Leaping Boots, Emperor Hairpin and such, has most possibly earned them through buying gil. Doesn't mean that just because you have the best gear, you're a good player. That's just wrong.

So I have controlled myself not to speak chinese much outside of the linkshell or tells. In fact, why the hell am I even speaking chinese in the linkshells? No one in there understands chinese. People raise eyebrows when I'm seen PLing chinese players, because the same old thought is in their minds. "That, is a gil-seller. Stay away." Was I wrong in PLing them? Maybe I was, but it never occured to me that they were gil-sellers. I had asked them what was the main reason they play the game, and all they say is because a friend had introduced it to them.

Once I had the chance to meet several chinese players in Valkurm Dunes. And that was when I chanced upon this all Asian Linkshell, a mixture of Singaporeans and other chinese in whatever place. I was rather surprised when I saw the people in there; some of them were notoriously referred to as none other than gil-sellers prior to that, and this is where most of them had gathered.

The most ironic thing was that a fellow chinese player had told me that the Linkshell was "bad". She told me to toss it away. Okay... so unless you're a gil-seller, you will say that it is bad. Thus, the conclusion is that not all chinese players are gil-sellers. (Right. Duh, you might think.)

Enough about that. Now that I've finally taken the chance to just spill everything out, I don't feel that bad inside anymore.

Quote: Tarfur - "We will eat like kings... and there will be cake."

Still laughing to that this very moment. I thank you for your very entertaining statements. Haha.

Hempishere

Really busy for the past few days. Busy playing, heh.

Yes. Soul Calibur III was really worth the money. It's probably the best I've played since SCII.

Right now I've completed "Chronicles of the Sword" once, and going through it a second time with an army of sword master classes. Also unlocked most of the stuff, except maybe some stage arenas and the character, Amy, who is... Raphael's foster daughter?

Haven't really specialized myself with any character, but I guess I'm fairly okay with Killik. Still learning the ropes. Needed more human opponents to practice with, so two of my friends and me did just that. But my friend here was merely button-mashing! And that, I tell you, earns you an easy victory, unless you guard impact ALL of the attacks, which of course, I couldn't manage.

My life seems to dim down quite a bit. Despite it being the holidays, and when I have an online game to keep myself sane and even lower the chances of me talking to myself. Yeah, I'm wierd. But, the maid is going back this weekend, and my father is on frequent business trips overseas, which leaves just three people remaining in the house. No prizes for guessing who. Heh. It's going to be really quiet, or so I think.

FFXI? I don't know what my aim is now. I'm wandering around aimlessly as a rather useless white mage. I stand in front of the Auction House for hours. I teleport people who shout for Holla randomly. I try to chat with people in both Linkshells. I attempt to solo for experience, only to fail miserably. I can't switch back to bard because I have no mood to transfer a massive amount of stuff over from mule. I never get in the mood to party. I reject all invites when I get them.

I shall not rant on. Keep them for another day. Eh heh heh.

Soul Calibur III

I got hold of my copy of the game yesterday.

Hurried to set up my PS2, which involved bringing all the wires, controllers and the console itself from my room out into the hall. Not that I would complain, but I had always left them all in the hall. Ever since my brother was born though, leaving such expensive items lying around is definitely not a wise option. Sometimes I can't even play in peace. He's dying to snatch the controller out of my hands. He's attracted to the lights of the reset button on the console, so much that he's always attempting to press it.

Now that's another thing. So, barely minutes into viewing the new features of the game, I was momentarily distracted by a sharp crackling sound, or at least that's how it sounded like. I didn't know what it was, and resumed with my game. Then it came again. And again for a third time. I looked around, only to catch, in the corner of my eye, the main powerpoint where my PS2 adaptor was connected to, spurting out wisps of black smoke. I was stunned. Then the screen went blank, and at once I rushed over to turn the switch off.

Whoa. That could have resulted in an electric fire! I let everything cool down, before I unplugged the two-pin plug. The plastic of the plug had melted, and one part of it broke off. Oh damn.

Well, at least I managed to get it replaced with a new one this afternoon. $25 for one. Ah, I'm broke. But I must say, the game is really good. Quite the step up from the previous (SCII). The most interesting thing would be the character custamization feature. Pick the gender, job and outfit them with anything you want. Of course, the items are gained through buying and unlocking, only if you have money, which is in turn obtained by fighting through the charaters' story mode. Haven't tried everything yet, so I don't really know about the other stuff in there.

Oh, and failed Promyvion-Holla again. 7 wonderful losses. Hope 8th's time the charm? It is considered a lucky number here at least, right? Luck is so not on my side. And I only did it because whoever didn't invite me for genkai 2. They all asked me to go- no wait, in fact only Schinn and Tarfur asked me to go. So I stood there like an idiot, waiting, waiting and waiting. No invite whatsoever. Basically I got the impression that I wasn't wanted, and there were already 6 people, or so I counted. Someone shouted for holla then, so I jumped in on the chance. It's not my fault, I hope? I was so damn bored...

Well anyway, looks like I'll be waiting, once again. Tomorrow, the day after, and more. With the Conquer 'O' programme ending as late as 1:30pm, it's largely affecting my gaming schedule! "We need to cover the syllabus" is what the teachers say. Okay, okay, I understand. My soft side is giving in.

Lastly, Selemat Hari Raya to everyone out there. Have a nice day... no, night. Heh.

[Edit: It's "calibur" and not "caliber". Sorry.]

Holidays...?

Today I learned that jack o'lanturns originated from Ireland, and was actually first made out of turnips, not pumpkins!

So while the people in the other parts of the world were probably celebrating Halloween, I was sitting in my room, and confined in there for nearly 12 hours, playing, of course. Well, not really playing, considering that half the time my character was just standing there, in front of the Auction House, with massive amounts of text in linkshell chat, and Jeuno shouts.

Managed to get my white mage up to level 37. Apart from finally being able to teleport, I can really "dump" it off after getting all the crap done. It's just a sub-job for my bard.

School tomorrow, thanks to the whatever conquer 'O' programme they have for us. Having holidays... is like not having it at all.

Baka? Sou dane!

Third Match Loss

The title says as much; we lost the third match of Ballista Royale, against the very, and I mean VERY experienced and skilled players from the team, Darkside.

Well, here I have a screenshot of our team members, which I think is the best taken yet.



The final score was 6-25. And wow, I didn't at all get a chance to score any petras. They were able to suppress us so well that even when I managed to approach the rook, the "event skipped" occurred due to them hitting me. I was bound countless times, one shoted by Guillotine. The dark knight came after me more often than not. Lullaby, of course, didn't work well enough.

Well, we lost, but at least it's good to see that at least such a strong team exists on Lakshmi. We're all on the same server after all, so all I can say is good luck to them. Lakshmi for the win!

After the match, and after we settled down from the loss, attempted to help Steini with his rank 6-2 mission, which had a rather hilarious result. Turned out that only Windurstians could enter the Burning Circle, and thus only him and Jakal managed to get in. As like anyone else would do, they escaped the place, of course. Death is not an option, with such unfair conditions.

Then, we set up a Promyvion-Dem party, for all those who hadn't completed it. I, of course had done it months back, but I offered to help anyway. It's really fun. After what seemed like a million hours, due to me being unable to teleport, and Jakal falling asleep, we finally got going in the promyvion. First time I ever entered without a summoner. But we didn't really need it anyway.

So we proceeded, only to die on the third floor, due to a stupid aggro from an incredibly tough mob, and a link by another Weeper. The tanks fell fast, and us mages bolted for the exit zone. None of us made it, all except for Tarfur.



You see, the zone is that glowing circle thing, and we died right on it. Duh.

We regrouped in Jeuno, got back to the promyvion, and this time we were lucky to meet another party doing it as well, so we formed an alliance for the way up to the boss fight. Everything went smoothly then. So was the boss fight. We were slow and steady in taking it down. Didn't have to use Bendiction, which was lucky, considering we didn't have a paladin. Now I see why some parties bring along paladins.

Much fun indeed, but very drained for the entire day, lasting from morning to late afternoon. Thank you everyone.

Bite Me

Today was the first time I ever bowled. And I can be quite sure, I'm not good at it either. Still, it was fun.

My mom's over-reacting over my younger brother. She's keeping a close watch on every of the maid's actions to make sure he's not being treated in a way he should not. I mean, come on! Of all times, now? Just because the maid pulled his ears the other day, she's now completely switched to alert mode.

Had sort of an argument with my dad upon his return from his business trip. I shall not go into details, but you can see how... how fucked up my family is. Yes, I can't believe I'm saying this, but there's no better way to put it.

The sky is falling. Turmoil, catastrophe, chaos, calamity, whatever words, they all fit.

Well, this is me. And there's no getting off this train I'm on.

Full Metal Panic!

Finally done watching Full Metal Panic: The Second Raid.



With just 13 episodes, the ending seems to be too rushed. Yet somehow everything falls into place nicely in the end, or at least that's what I think.

So in the end, Amalgam was destroyed, when Sousuke made a surprise comeback in the Arbalest after Chidori made him return to his senses. Both the twins and their sensei died, with one being killed by Leonard's A.S., and the other losing her life in the battle with Mr Gates. As for Gaulun, Sousuke shot him to death. Sousuke, of course, got rid of Mr Gates by use of the Lambda Driver.

Sousuke finally realized what was most important to him. He didn't recognize himself as a sergeant anymore, but rather, a mercenery. He requested for him to be posted back to the school with Chidori. So basically it's a happy ending, but Chidori did not manage to express her love for Sousuke even at the end of the episode.

As for my exam results, I've nothing much to say. So far I've failed A Math and Social Studies, which is well, expected. Heh.

Whence Blows the Wind

Congratulations to Heavensfury! We've won the second match of the Ballista Royale, meaning that 2 more victories and we'll be representing Lakshmi!

The match didn't start out quite well, considering that I was the first to die (sob), and the opposing team scored 8 petras right at the start. But, the tide of battle changed, and we were almost always in the lead for the remaining of the match.

Really good teamwork, and according to Sotori, we didn't even have to communicate much. That can't be more true. Later we came up with a tactic, for the white mage to cast invisible on himself and stealthily sneak up to the rook to score once we obtained gate breach status. That worked perfectly. In fact, Raskin, our white mage was the high scorer! Cool stuff.

When I saw that there was 1 minute remaining to the end of the match, I knew that we were going to win for sure. Final score was 35-17. Haha, totally owned, all thanks to our wonderful teamwork, and skill this time round.

At least the opposing team members were sporting losers. So unlike the previous match's losers, where they continued ranting on about how we had won because of luck. Sure, it may be luck, but that just means we were luckier. Hah.

I couldn't help smiling when the match ended. Was in really high spirits, and lost for words. Didn't care that I was going to miss lunch. Our victory ceased my hunger.

I helped out a friend after that for his paladin AF2, which, at first, he died miserably from the pugil's Screwdriver attack. So he zoned back to Jeuno, called for additional help, a 75 thief, and we proceed to whoop the mob easily.

Ligerzero, or Willis, for that matter, has gotten back to play FFXI once again. Full of surprises. He's now an Elvaan warrior. I'm not used to see him as that. Ah, but it's good to have someone that I know play the game. At least, it feels different.

Let's win again next week. Although Raskin said he couldn't make it, we do hope that he could take a half day leave or something. He's the best white mage one could ever meet. And so is everyone else in the team, including the backups for giving their fullest support, heh.

Tomorrow, some concert performance we have to watch, as part of our school's post exams activities. Doesn't seem appealing, but honestly, anywhere outside the school is fine with me.

Guess I'm done with my rants. Until then... see ya.

Rank 5 - Have Wings, Will Fly

When I logged on to FFXI, it felt like I had just started all over again. I didn't know anyone, and I didn't know why I was there. Didn't know the people in the Linkshell, and when I made an attempt in making a remark, there wasn't any response. Friends on my friend list weren't in there, and at least more than half are "dead".

I unequipped it, as I ran around Jeuno, wandering aimlessly. I received plenty of invites, all of which I turned down. I had no mood.

Logged and returned in an hour or so. As I was farming a little with my NPC, Tarfur asked me to go meet him at Windurst. So, after my NPC took his leave, I boarded the airship, forgetting the fact that he could have easily warped to Jeuno.

He traded to me the pearl for Orestia's LS, which is the one almost everyone else I know have been in, since the "conflict". With nothing else to do, we sat around the fountain in Windurst Woods, and just chatted. Here's a screenshot.



After my quick lunch, I hinted to him about rank 5. I told him that I knew the way, and thus we set off to do it. That really killed my boredom. I never get more joy from doing anything else other than helping people. Rank 5, genkai 3, PLing, you know.

Everything went smoothly. After all, I've done these countless number of times. Maybe I should start working as a guide, lol. But then again, no, I don't want gil involved. It's free! Rid me of my boredom and I offer you any help you need. Within my abilities, of course.

When we finished everything it was like 4:30 A.M. for him. I honestly wouldn't stay up till that time if I have school that morning. But, rank 5, pretty exciting, eh? An airship pass! Who would resist?

Ah, really looking forward to all the new games. Shadow Hearts: From the New World, Grandia 3, Tales of the Abyss, Kingdom Hearts II, Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus, just to name a few. And also, Final Fantasy IV, V and VI for the GameBoy Advance. Can't wait to see how's Full Metal Panic: The Second Raid is going to end, too.

Oh, and I received the codex for Ballista Royale from the NPC. Next scheduled match is on 22 December, 21:00 PDT. Should be correct, considering it appeared as 23 December, 12 noon, Singapore time.

Over and Done With

End of year exams finally ended today. And to think that I wished it never came. At least, it's over now. But the holidays doesn't really start until all the extra lessons are done with. Sigh.

What can I say... Time to kick back, relax and probably return to FFXI full time, if there's even anything to do. Just so happens that the track from Chains of Promathia OST, "Faded Memories-Promyvion" is playing right now. And that reminds me, I've yet to beat the boss in Promyvion-Holla. Four losses so far; kinda gave up already.

I'm tired, but I dont want to sleep. Ah, the irony. Considering how there's no school tomorrow, I might just end up not sleeping... Well, you never know.

Ballista Royale - First Match

For anyone who still doesn't know what this event is about, learn more about it here.

Well, our team, Heavensfury was up against Koden for the very first match. As luck would have it, we won. Barely, I might add. Thanks to Raskin's final petra right at the last second, making us beat them by 1 point. Other than that, it was a fine display of skill from the other usual "ballista"ers. Me? I don't take part in these often.

Felt kind of useless in there without a sub job. Being a bard, I couldn't heal, stoneskin, blink and all that. But I guess that made me realize that ultimately I'm just casting Lullaby over and over. And I scored 4 petras. Not too bad, I guess. Highest scorer was Eneco, with 7 petras. Woot.

And here's a screenshot taken before the match started. Don't blame me for cutting out the other members; I wasn't standing in the centre of the lot and therefore couldn't get everyone in view.



Only managed to take one, as during the match it was so hectic I couldn't afford to direct my attention somewhere else.

Died twice, the second highest number of deaths next to Raskin. They always go for us mages first. Sigh. I was "Dancing Edge"d, and "Penta Trust"ed if I remember correctly.

Still, we won. And that, is of course a good thing. Oh, and did I mention that I was only a backup team member, only replacing Rick because, because... I don't know. Whatever the reason is. The others weren't too happy about it, of course.

Next week would be the 2nd match, since all the first rounds finishes today. Let's hope we make it all the way to represent Lakshmi server. Tough, but we rock. =P

Peace out.

Midst of Exams

Ah, finally. More than a third of the examintion is over. Just three more subjects, two more days. I can't wait.

Watched Final Fantasy VII: Last Order, the video animation which came with the boxed set of Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children released only in Japan, and is also part of the Complilation of FFVII.

Basically it's about the flashbacks of the events with Sephiroth in Nibelheim and also about Zack's and Cloud escape from Shinra. If you played the game, you'll already know the gist of it.
You don't get to see Zack being shot to death, though. It's the final scene where the screen goes black and all you hear is a gunshot. Bang.

And, Ballista Royale. 18:00 PDT, 15 October. Finally got the time right, I guess, after some calculations.

Gonna go sleep, soon.

Accident Aftermath

My younger brother hit his head while running too fast just awhile back. His forehead is so damn swollen. This is the second time this has happened. The last time, an arguement broke out between my parents. A long one, at that. It lasted all the way to the hospital.

And me? I'm stuck in between.

My father kept asking how he had knocked his head. My mother didn't really see what happened then, as she was behind him while my brother ran into my room. Picture this: someone who keeps asking someone about something she doesn't exactly know. You get a never-ending chain of arguements.

I really don't understand them. Then they're ranting about how they want to leave the house. My father mumbling about how he wants to go on business trips and not be in this house. My mother, has always been saying how she can't take it anymore and wants to leave the house. By this time, I knew I had to do something.

I shouted, in chinese, "Won't you two stop it already! Don't keep pushing the blame all over, the child belongs to both of you!"

That shut them up. And mind you, I was having my dinner at that time. Now I'm drowning myself in music, to get them out of my mind.

Sick, Tired, Dying

I can't find a better day to be sick.

My nose was twitchy this morning. I knew it was acting up, so I brought extra tissue, lol. So there you have it, down with cold the whole day, with a slight fever towards noon. And I couldn't think. My mind was blank one moment, then filled with wierd thoughts the next. Still, really glad that I had anticipated it and got prepared. Well, in a way. There's nothing I can do to stop it anyway. Sigh.

After lunch, I was just too tired. Fell asleep with heaps of tissue at my feet. I wonder where the hell my dustbin went! It isn't there when I need it most.

Well I just woke up, and I don't know whether I even have the appetite for dinner. And there's still my chinese composition and math papers to do by tomorrow. How can I... possibly finish them all in my current state?

Ugh. Feel my pain.

Hmph

Awoke at 7:30 A.M., but turned out that there wasn't any ballista practice. So me sleeping early had all come down to nothing. Well I ended up PLing Raskin's party at Yuhtunga Jungle. Besides the usual healing, I saved lots of lives from a large number of Goblin Smithys being zoned. Heh.

Math tuition prevented me from staying longer, though. Argh, that's why I hate it, my Sundays are entirely occupied by tuition. I'm glad this year is coming to an end.

Exams in a week. Yikes.

Just finished dinner(yes, at 11:30P.M.) and I'm about to turn in for the night.

Later.

Ballista Royale? Warau

So, in preperation for the upcoming Ballista Royale, our LS is holding practices in Diorama Abdhaljs-Ghelsba. But me, being here in Singapore, and them in America, the timing doesn't ever work out. It's either too late or too early. And that's also the reason I'm unable to join any HNM LS. What I can join are the Japanese ones, but then, I don't understand Japanese well enough.

Did I piss someone off when I said "Don't care about me, you all go on ahead"? Because my name is on the team list, I'm being treated with importance as much as everyone else. But no, I don't want to affect everyone else and delay the practices to a time which becomes inconvenient for them instead. Besides, I only signed up to be a backup. I was on the verge of saying "well then, kick me out". Then again, we don't even know if we're chosen yet, why worry so much?

As much as I know I'm not going to make it though, I'm going to try. I always have problems waking up early. Two, or even three alarm clocks won't work. Which is why, I'm going to bed extremely early tonight, or at least it's early for me. I'm aiming for 9:30 P.M.

Heh. And I haven't even bathed or taken dinner yet. Better get on to it.

Tired

I want to watch D.N.Angel, especially after listening to the opening theme. What a great song. I don't have enough money to buy the anime, but I guess I'll get the chance to watch it soon, hopefully. A friend's friend has it, so maybe she could borrow it for me.

Really having very little sleep this week, or so I consider it to be. I seem to be suffering from insomnia or something. Total number of hours of sleep so far this week is 10 hours. Meh. That's quite a lot actually. It could be much much lesser than that.

Havent studied Chemistry. I don't really know. I keep telling myself to turn in early and I might just end up staying up till 1 or 2. No, I can't let it happen today. I'll just glance through the main points and study the rest tomorrow. Besides, Mrs. Tan did say she was going to give us 1 period to study anyway.

And A Math Trigonometry is driving me crazy. I'd better go for the consultation tomorrow. I don't want to fail the next test. I can't.

Oh, and here's a small screenshot of FFXI, for anyone who have not seen it before. Though if you like FF, I certainly doubt so.


I'm none other than the one playing music. =P

Stop Dreaming Already

I don't really know what to say, but since I'm so bored at this hour. Guess I shall recall how I had met friends on FFXI.

Idontknow, the male Tarutaru I met the very first day I started playing, at South Gustaberg. I had chosen Bastok because I liked the music there, heh. Really grateful to him for teaching me all the basics I needed to know, and for leveling with me up till about level 10 or so. Found out that he had one other character called Dikar, a hume male. Sometime later on, he "disappeared". Only upon his return about 2 months later did we find out that his house had been destroyed a tornado, in Florida. He then stopped playing as Idontknow as we were all so high levels then.

Axl, the hume male I first saw at Danguf Wadi when I was playing as thief. The second time I went in there with Idontknow, spotted him again. I said hi, and he told us he was apparantly lost. So we worked our way out together. We ventured out to Konshtat Highlands, the first time I had ever been that far. He introduced to me a group called The Pillows, which well, I'm a fan of them now, and really grateful to him. He's also the first person to tell me that my character name, Usagimaru, actually means male rabbit, or could also mean rabbit tail or meatballs, haha. He said once that his father knows the people of SquareEnix, and may work there sometime. Born in Japan, and currently living in the USA, I think. Well, now he doesn't play anymore. Good luck to him.

Finnh, male hume, whom I first met in Valkurm Dunes, at level 13. The first we just happened to be in the same party. Didn't really talk much at that time. The second time was different though, as we had more chance to converse within a party which lasted extremely long. Turned out that he was rather friendly, and we became friends just like that. Really nice guy, living in New York. Never really managed to party with him again at higher levels, but we managed to get Mission 2-3 done together. Seldom see him these days, but he does come on once in a while.

Sotori, a fellow hume male thief, ahah. First met him at Valkurm Dunes. He never talked much to begin with, but we added each other to our friend lists anyway. We got our Palborough Mines keys for Kazham Airship Pass at the same time. Kinda lost contact with him later on, but somehow got back through the LS, TheFatedOnes, which was created by Dikar. I think, somehow, all my friends were revolved around this LS.

Martind, hume male, playing as red mage when I first met him at Kazham. He lives in Holland but isn't Dutch, actually. Born in Africa, north or south, I forgot. Real name is Martin. XD Well, I was waiting for a party, which was really rare at that time of the day. He happened to be doing the same thing. We were both standing at the exit to Kazham, as bored as can be. This caused us to kill time by talking to the ony other person around, I guess. We played "Hide and Seek" inside Kazham, lol. Became friends after that. Somehow, he also got into the same LS, TheFatedOnes. What a coincidence.

Steini, hume male. Only got to know him through the LS. Always calling people "Jew", heh. Only later when we all switched to the LS, Genocyde did we get to know him better. Well, he being the leader, of course. Still remember the time when Martin and I said that "Steini's actually a nice guy, if u know him well enough". Ahah. He quit in May this year, but as his friend wanted someone to play with, offered to pay for his bills, thus he returned in July. Always longing that I can fly to America sometime, lol. I wonder?

Well, I guess that pretty much sums up all the main peeps I know. Of course there are more, but I havent really gotten to know them much and anyway, if I listed them all there would be too many. =P

Nice Time To Be Sick

Got a cold, again. Damn sinus.

I couldn't concentrate on doing the tests today. My mind completely blanked out during the chinese test as I used pieces of tissue paper one after another. Forty pieces barely managed to last me through the hour and a half.

Biology test was slightly better, as I had spent the previous night doing notes. Turns out that writing the points out is indeed quite effective. But some facts did slip off my mind though. Then again, maybe I just didn't know.

I don't care if I flunk them. I was sick. SICK.

You Know Who You Are

Why must you be so unreasonable,
at very little thing.
Doesn't matter if it's right or wrong
as long as you don't like it.
You don't even find out the truth.

You're pessimistic.
You don't take what others say into consideration.
Complainin' all day, about how unfair life is.
You think you're the only one!?
Have you ever thought about
how the others around you are feeling?

You don't listen to others.
You expect others to listen to you?
And you blame them for not helping you
in any way,
when you don't even let them in the first place?
And not showing any gratitude?

Why?
You're... different.
You've changed, and you know it.
And I...

I hate you for that.

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

Well, I bought Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. Cost me $79, damn expensive.

But it was totally awesome. Really, what an amazing animated movie. Ah, good work, SquareEnix. Keep 'em games comin'.

As much as it was good though, I couldn't really understand what they were saying. they spoke in Japanese, and there were no English subtitles. Heh, but who needs subtitles when you have the amazing graphics and action packed scenes to keep you drawn in anyway. Gotta love Tifa and Cloud. Oh, and everyone else. Heh heh.

And I changed blogskin again... didn't quite like the second one I had chosen. Everything here's revolving around Final Fantasy VII, eh?

Well anyway, look at the time, argh. I must be off.

Depression

Just tell me what the hell is going on.

Why do people try to kill themselves...
Think they can just slit their wrists and die?
Or better still just jump down,
or the painless method,
excessive consumption of pills.

What are you trying to do here?
There's no logic behind all this.

Think about it.
We are dying from the moment we are born.
If we know that we're going to die in the end anyways,
why are we still here?

Did you ever truly live?
Or are you just here because you are... just here?

Sure there are reasons behind all these...
Just because of a setback,
goals failed in life,
lost love...
We see no point in carrying on.
Just end it.

And we continue living on beacuse it's good?
Having a good life?
Or that our life is just ups,
and no downs?

You honestly think so?

It's just complicated...
You might understand,
you might not.
But I know for sure.

I don't.

Maat Masher

Finally got hold of Good News For People Who Love Bad News by Modest Mouse.

Looked around the store for any The Pillows albums. Search results - Negative. =(

And woot, defeated Maat for genkai 5. Ahahaha. Thanks to those who lent me their equipment.

It wasn't that bad actually. Not as bad as I thought it to be. Maat was hitting me for close to 100 and i was dealing about 30 damage on average and 40+ for criticals. The only WS Maat used against me was One-Inch Punch, which missed. Heh heh. With Soul Voice and double Paeon, keeping HP high wasn't much of a problem.

Basically just finalled Maat's Minne, Cyclone, used an Icarus Wing followed by another Cyclone. Skillchain: Detonation. Then just whacked all the way till the end.

And ugh... school reopens on next Monday. Gonna be bored to death by it, or get stressed until I just blow up. Either way, not fun. =(

Holidays...

Went to watch "One More Chance", the new Jack Neo film, with Willis, Guang Sheng, Clarence, Mao Kun and Aloysius Yuen at Jubilee.

Haha. More like a 6B gathering with 2 extra people.

The movie was not bad. Funny, and touching at certain parts. It's mainly about giving ex-convicts a second chance. Yeah, totally. People need to be more understanding, damn it. Don't discriminate them, like people always do.

We went to the arcade before and after the movie. I mean, where else could we possibly go to?

And the game I always play is Guilty Gear XX2 Reloaded. I'm not exactly pro at it, but whatever. It's fun, and that's all I care.

Had dinner, and went home.

Almost died of boredom. Man, there's nothing to do. I'm tired yet I don't want to sleep, and I'm too lazy to get up from my chair. The most I do is walk around the house, and it doesn't give me much space anyway.

Well, at least listening to Mikuni Shimokawa keeps me sane. Yes, the wonderful singer who performed all opening and ending themes for the 3 current Full Metal Panic series.

Well, itte kimasu... ja ne.

End of Term

Meh. They should have just made this particular Friday a holiday.

Okay, anyway during S.S. period, there were two boxes at first, one for rubbish, and the other for some numbers. We were like, so fixed upon picking out numbers that we totally forgot about the lesson. Naturally, she came over. So, she was like staring at us. We were silent. And then she asked what we were doing. I said "Dustbin". XD Apparantly she thought I called her a dustbin. Yeah, right. So I pointed out that 2 dustbins lay in front of us. Then she crushed them up into a pile and ordered them to be thrown away. I insisted that they were only to be cleared at the end of the day. Futile, though. Heh, whatever.

Chinese lesson sucked. Period.

And wow, Steini actually remembered I asked him for a poem much much earlier today. 1:30A.M. actually. I told him it had to be something about life. He said that he had once written a song for guitar for a girl, but they got into a fight, so it's worthless to him now. I said yeah sure I'll take a look. Really cool. Not a poem exactly, but I'm going to change parts of it. It's the poem for Literature, ugh!

dawn is a seed planted in the sky
dusk is the time that seed will die
day is the time i was thought to live
night is the time i am born again

the sun shone brightly
as it burned the sky

she dries her tears
as i start to die

our years were short
but our conscience clean

my time best spent
if spent with you

and our lives
and our loves

our memories
and what i've learned
through your laugh and your smile
what changes
when we change
but you and i will
we'll always remain the same

- Steini

Can't thank him enough...

I Don't Know

It started,
two days ago.
He sent me a voice clip.
I couldn't receive it.
Updated, installed, the usual.
Asked him to test it;
it worked.
And then,
he initated a voice conversation.
For a moment there,
I couldn't say a word.
I don't know why,
I just feel

Wierd.