Tired

I want to watch D.N.Angel, especially after listening to the opening theme. What a great song. I don't have enough money to buy the anime, but I guess I'll get the chance to watch it soon, hopefully. A friend's friend has it, so maybe she could borrow it for me.

Really having very little sleep this week, or so I consider it to be. I seem to be suffering from insomnia or something. Total number of hours of sleep so far this week is 10 hours. Meh. That's quite a lot actually. It could be much much lesser than that.

Havent studied Chemistry. I don't really know. I keep telling myself to turn in early and I might just end up staying up till 1 or 2. No, I can't let it happen today. I'll just glance through the main points and study the rest tomorrow. Besides, Mrs. Tan did say she was going to give us 1 period to study anyway.

And A Math Trigonometry is driving me crazy. I'd better go for the consultation tomorrow. I don't want to fail the next test. I can't.

Oh, and here's a small screenshot of FFXI, for anyone who have not seen it before. Though if you like FF, I certainly doubt so.


I'm none other than the one playing music. =P

Stop Dreaming Already

I don't really know what to say, but since I'm so bored at this hour. Guess I shall recall how I had met friends on FFXI.

Idontknow, the male Tarutaru I met the very first day I started playing, at South Gustaberg. I had chosen Bastok because I liked the music there, heh. Really grateful to him for teaching me all the basics I needed to know, and for leveling with me up till about level 10 or so. Found out that he had one other character called Dikar, a hume male. Sometime later on, he "disappeared". Only upon his return about 2 months later did we find out that his house had been destroyed a tornado, in Florida. He then stopped playing as Idontknow as we were all so high levels then.

Axl, the hume male I first saw at Danguf Wadi when I was playing as thief. The second time I went in there with Idontknow, spotted him again. I said hi, and he told us he was apparantly lost. So we worked our way out together. We ventured out to Konshtat Highlands, the first time I had ever been that far. He introduced to me a group called The Pillows, which well, I'm a fan of them now, and really grateful to him. He's also the first person to tell me that my character name, Usagimaru, actually means male rabbit, or could also mean rabbit tail or meatballs, haha. He said once that his father knows the people of SquareEnix, and may work there sometime. Born in Japan, and currently living in the USA, I think. Well, now he doesn't play anymore. Good luck to him.

Finnh, male hume, whom I first met in Valkurm Dunes, at level 13. The first we just happened to be in the same party. Didn't really talk much at that time. The second time was different though, as we had more chance to converse within a party which lasted extremely long. Turned out that he was rather friendly, and we became friends just like that. Really nice guy, living in New York. Never really managed to party with him again at higher levels, but we managed to get Mission 2-3 done together. Seldom see him these days, but he does come on once in a while.

Sotori, a fellow hume male thief, ahah. First met him at Valkurm Dunes. He never talked much to begin with, but we added each other to our friend lists anyway. We got our Palborough Mines keys for Kazham Airship Pass at the same time. Kinda lost contact with him later on, but somehow got back through the LS, TheFatedOnes, which was created by Dikar. I think, somehow, all my friends were revolved around this LS.

Martind, hume male, playing as red mage when I first met him at Kazham. He lives in Holland but isn't Dutch, actually. Born in Africa, north or south, I forgot. Real name is Martin. XD Well, I was waiting for a party, which was really rare at that time of the day. He happened to be doing the same thing. We were both standing at the exit to Kazham, as bored as can be. This caused us to kill time by talking to the ony other person around, I guess. We played "Hide and Seek" inside Kazham, lol. Became friends after that. Somehow, he also got into the same LS, TheFatedOnes. What a coincidence.

Steini, hume male. Only got to know him through the LS. Always calling people "Jew", heh. Only later when we all switched to the LS, Genocyde did we get to know him better. Well, he being the leader, of course. Still remember the time when Martin and I said that "Steini's actually a nice guy, if u know him well enough". Ahah. He quit in May this year, but as his friend wanted someone to play with, offered to pay for his bills, thus he returned in July. Always longing that I can fly to America sometime, lol. I wonder?

Well, I guess that pretty much sums up all the main peeps I know. Of course there are more, but I havent really gotten to know them much and anyway, if I listed them all there would be too many. =P

Nice Time To Be Sick

Got a cold, again. Damn sinus.

I couldn't concentrate on doing the tests today. My mind completely blanked out during the chinese test as I used pieces of tissue paper one after another. Forty pieces barely managed to last me through the hour and a half.

Biology test was slightly better, as I had spent the previous night doing notes. Turns out that writing the points out is indeed quite effective. But some facts did slip off my mind though. Then again, maybe I just didn't know.

I don't care if I flunk them. I was sick. SICK.

You Know Who You Are

Why must you be so unreasonable,
at very little thing.
Doesn't matter if it's right or wrong
as long as you don't like it.
You don't even find out the truth.

You're pessimistic.
You don't take what others say into consideration.
Complainin' all day, about how unfair life is.
You think you're the only one!?
Have you ever thought about
how the others around you are feeling?

You don't listen to others.
You expect others to listen to you?
And you blame them for not helping you
in any way,
when you don't even let them in the first place?
And not showing any gratitude?

Why?
You're... different.
You've changed, and you know it.
And I...

I hate you for that.

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

Well, I bought Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. Cost me $79, damn expensive.

But it was totally awesome. Really, what an amazing animated movie. Ah, good work, SquareEnix. Keep 'em games comin'.

As much as it was good though, I couldn't really understand what they were saying. they spoke in Japanese, and there were no English subtitles. Heh, but who needs subtitles when you have the amazing graphics and action packed scenes to keep you drawn in anyway. Gotta love Tifa and Cloud. Oh, and everyone else. Heh heh.

And I changed blogskin again... didn't quite like the second one I had chosen. Everything here's revolving around Final Fantasy VII, eh?

Well anyway, look at the time, argh. I must be off.

Depression

Just tell me what the hell is going on.

Why do people try to kill themselves...
Think they can just slit their wrists and die?
Or better still just jump down,
or the painless method,
excessive consumption of pills.

What are you trying to do here?
There's no logic behind all this.

Think about it.
We are dying from the moment we are born.
If we know that we're going to die in the end anyways,
why are we still here?

Did you ever truly live?
Or are you just here because you are... just here?

Sure there are reasons behind all these...
Just because of a setback,
goals failed in life,
lost love...
We see no point in carrying on.
Just end it.

And we continue living on beacuse it's good?
Having a good life?
Or that our life is just ups,
and no downs?

You honestly think so?

It's just complicated...
You might understand,
you might not.
But I know for sure.

I don't.

Maat Masher

Finally got hold of Good News For People Who Love Bad News by Modest Mouse.

Looked around the store for any The Pillows albums. Search results - Negative. =(

And woot, defeated Maat for genkai 5. Ahahaha. Thanks to those who lent me their equipment.

It wasn't that bad actually. Not as bad as I thought it to be. Maat was hitting me for close to 100 and i was dealing about 30 damage on average and 40+ for criticals. The only WS Maat used against me was One-Inch Punch, which missed. Heh heh. With Soul Voice and double Paeon, keeping HP high wasn't much of a problem.

Basically just finalled Maat's Minne, Cyclone, used an Icarus Wing followed by another Cyclone. Skillchain: Detonation. Then just whacked all the way till the end.

And ugh... school reopens on next Monday. Gonna be bored to death by it, or get stressed until I just blow up. Either way, not fun. =(

Holidays...

Went to watch "One More Chance", the new Jack Neo film, with Willis, Guang Sheng, Clarence, Mao Kun and Aloysius Yuen at Jubilee.

Haha. More like a 6B gathering with 2 extra people.

The movie was not bad. Funny, and touching at certain parts. It's mainly about giving ex-convicts a second chance. Yeah, totally. People need to be more understanding, damn it. Don't discriminate them, like people always do.

We went to the arcade before and after the movie. I mean, where else could we possibly go to?

And the game I always play is Guilty Gear XX2 Reloaded. I'm not exactly pro at it, but whatever. It's fun, and that's all I care.

Had dinner, and went home.

Almost died of boredom. Man, there's nothing to do. I'm tired yet I don't want to sleep, and I'm too lazy to get up from my chair. The most I do is walk around the house, and it doesn't give me much space anyway.

Well, at least listening to Mikuni Shimokawa keeps me sane. Yes, the wonderful singer who performed all opening and ending themes for the 3 current Full Metal Panic series.

Well, itte kimasu... ja ne.

End of Term

Meh. They should have just made this particular Friday a holiday.

Okay, anyway during S.S. period, there were two boxes at first, one for rubbish, and the other for some numbers. We were like, so fixed upon picking out numbers that we totally forgot about the lesson. Naturally, she came over. So, she was like staring at us. We were silent. And then she asked what we were doing. I said "Dustbin". XD Apparantly she thought I called her a dustbin. Yeah, right. So I pointed out that 2 dustbins lay in front of us. Then she crushed them up into a pile and ordered them to be thrown away. I insisted that they were only to be cleared at the end of the day. Futile, though. Heh, whatever.

Chinese lesson sucked. Period.

And wow, Steini actually remembered I asked him for a poem much much earlier today. 1:30A.M. actually. I told him it had to be something about life. He said that he had once written a song for guitar for a girl, but they got into a fight, so it's worthless to him now. I said yeah sure I'll take a look. Really cool. Not a poem exactly, but I'm going to change parts of it. It's the poem for Literature, ugh!

dawn is a seed planted in the sky
dusk is the time that seed will die
day is the time i was thought to live
night is the time i am born again

the sun shone brightly
as it burned the sky

she dries her tears
as i start to die

our years were short
but our conscience clean

my time best spent
if spent with you

and our lives
and our loves

our memories
and what i've learned
through your laugh and your smile
what changes
when we change
but you and i will
we'll always remain the same

- Steini

Can't thank him enough...

I Don't Know

It started,
two days ago.
He sent me a voice clip.
I couldn't receive it.
Updated, installed, the usual.
Asked him to test it;
it worked.
And then,
he initated a voice conversation.
For a moment there,
I couldn't say a word.
I don't know why,
I just feel

Wierd.