Verklempt #3

Some people just want to make you feel guilty and down. They seem to enjoy it. It's almost like schadenfreude, in a sense.

And what he said was right - what are the chances?

Verklempt #2

I reached the final case of Apollo Justice, and it's interesting so far. The only problem I had was with the first witness. I couldn't percieve his damn habits. I mean seriously, (highlight for spoilers) who the hell sweats at their armpits the moment they lie? Damn, that was really a bitch to find.

School never got better. I wasn't expecting much anyway. Everytime it comes down to these grouping situations you really see how everyone hates each other's guts, so to speak. Seems so much like a facade in most cases.

I almost planned on skipping school today. I walk to school every day and my feet just seemed dead today.

These days I just feel like staying at home, listening to music and playing music I like. There's almost nothing much to look forward to, maybe except some new music albums coming out over the next few months, and until I save enough money to go abroad.

Well maybe the next break, which is probably the only peace I'm ever gonna get for a long time to come.

How to disappear completely

Yeah that's what I feel right now. Disappear from this mess I'm in. Well, "mess" isn't exactly the best word to call it, but it'd do for now. It is pretty messed up, after all.

Many issues can be drawn out from this, if you think about it. This isn't just a simple project group anymore, it's much more than that. It's more than a misunderstanding, more than communication breakdown. The point is, this is some of the craziest shit I've ever seen in school. Never did I think people would act this way.

Like I said before, I won't deny I am a last minute kind of person. I can't work without stress, and probably not till the last minute. The other members? Well I think they're far better than me in this aspect. They can do work way before the deadline, I can't. Main point is, no matter when we do the work, we will get it done in the end. Doesn't matter if it's 1 hour or a minute before the deadline, the work will be done.

To what end would you go to get your"justice"? I presume you know the situation clearly, well enough to know who's at fault. Your intentions and your disposition at the time are totally two different matters, don't link them if you can't control your emotions. We didn't need to tell anyone anything. Your actions that day told them everything.

I fail to see how anything you did that day was morally correct. Your intentions, yes. Your actions? No way in hell. If you choose to insist that you are right, I'm prepared to be scribed as your villian. Your story, after all, is none of my concern.

And what's left of it? You've just left an indelible mark upon yourself.

I'm only doing this because the soft approach didn't work. Besides, I'm not counting on you to read this. Like it would even matter, really. Some people just don't listen.

Cavalcade of anger and fear

Steini linked me this, you should take a look.

http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1739601,00.html?cnn=yes

Some of those points mentioned are actually quite true, I think. And using the virtual world as a sort of therapy, who would've thought.

And speaking about people and their qualities, this morning held one occurance which displayed the zenith of varying dispositions.

I'm typing this through the course of 2 hours. (Of course, I'm not just staring at the screen for 2 hours, rather I'm busy with work) Up till this point I can't find the correct words to describe this situation. All I can say is that it looks really bad, people in my class should know.

Perhaps when this rather tense atmosphere has settled down, I shall attempt to write about it.

I should've seen this coming. As if what happened when I awoke wasn't heralding anything. I woke up in a cacophony of noise, of half dead alarm clocks and the drilling sounds of renovation works in the apartment below mine. Needless to say I was half deaf before I even left the house.

School is probably my most dreaded place now. And probably for a long time to come.

Farewell, Allian

I was checking my friends list today on FF and then noticed that Allian left a final message in the game.

"Allian quit - 5/6/08"

I think he's actually using the MM/DD/YY format, so that's 6th May.

I missed the chance for a proper valediction. Guess I wasn't that much of a friend, was I.

I've known him way back since my bard in the 40s. I was actually levelling white mage sub at the time, and got into a party with him and his lousy connection in Qufim. He couldn't zone; everytime he does he goes into a long loading screen and then disconnects.

In any case, he was a good friend. Helped me a lot, particularly with the Evisceration NM and supplying weapons to the dunes.

Good luck out there, Allian.

Silenced

Day 4. Pain gone, but as a counter reaction, I've temporarily lost my voice.

I wonder how tomorrow's presentation will turn out with me in this state. Either it miraculously heals within the next couple of hours, or I continue with his hoarse, deep voice. Creepy even, someone called it.

Past week has been full of tests. They just have to clutter everything within a few days and give us hell.

And, thank you Steini for the songs. X) I haven't yet had a good listen to all of them cause I've been busy, but I'll find some time this week.

Well now, I got slides to prepare for tomorrow.

Miasmatic Monday

Monday sucks. It always does, at least when's there's school. To top it off I got a damn sore throat that hurts like hell. It's been a while since I had my throat act up this bad.

And school always has this effect on me. I don't know, makes me feel lousy over nothing. Couple that with the fact that I got no music to listen to.

I think I really need a new mp3 player or something.

That's pretty much all I'm going to say. In fact, today sucks so much I don't even know why I'm even talking about it.