Thursday, December 29, 2005

The End is Near...

End of the year, that is.

While Japanese players get to enjoy and go crazy over Kingdom Hearts 2, every other person who didn't get it imported will have to wait for another 3 months or so. Sigh.

Finally done getting 100% completion in Final Fantasy X-2. It was during my second playthrough that I realized that I had forgotten to watch the scenes at the Chocobo Ranch via the CommSphere.

Not been up to anything lately in FFXI. At most, I was on only twice during the past month. Well thrice, if I count in today.

Argh.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Time flies, indeed.

Been a while.

But well, there's nothing much to talk about. I've been sick for like, 2 weeks and for the most part, was plenty bored.

And so I went ahead to max out stats in FFX, and oversouled every fiend through Via Infinito in FFx-2. And ugh, I'm at 99% completion. Where's the freaking 1% I missed!

Now, with less than 2 weeks left until school reopens, I wonder if I should get some work done. But the sight of books... Ugh.

My left ear is apparently "blocked". You know how sometimes it happens, and when you yawn and "pop", it clears itself. But it isn't working for me this time. It's been four days now, and I still can't hear things clearly.

Anyway, time for breakfast.

Later.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Hail to the Thief...

Steini quit FFXI today, once again.

Sigh...

And it seemed like just yesterday that we were all having fun partying.

Axl vanished without a trace. Martind, don't know where the heck he is now. Shadowwolf has most likely quit. Dikar, well, I don't know either. Finnh, rarely see him nowadays. Who's next?

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Well let's not think too much, it's just a game after all. The real person is still there.

On to other things, Radiata Stories is rather difficult, I must say. With time progression according to a clock, featuring day and night, which affect the appearances of NPCs, it makes it hard to be able to recruit people within the so called given time, and to do some other things. Makes it feel that I'm rushing to the station for the very last train of the month.

The battle system is very similar to Star Ocean: Till the end of Time, which was really good. Certain things have been slightly altered, though. You can press X to guard in battle. Other stuff like side stepping is somewhat in there, but you can only jump back this time. Assigning of different attacks to form combos make it so that you actually button-mash for the most part of battle. And it's really frustrating to hear the characters keep shouting "All right!" during battle and post battle. I think I've heard it more than a hundred times already.

Featuring lots of characters to recruit, like Suikoden, is not neccessarily a good thing. Most of the characters are junk, lousy to use in battle, and you "don't actually need them". Coupled with the day and night system, it gets really frustrating to attempt to even hunt down all of them.

Well I shall play on to see how it goes, and hopefully, it goes on the right path. It shouldn't be too bad.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Suikoden IV

That's the game I have been playing within the past week.

It's an awesome game. I completely changed my view about Suikoden once I played this. The bad impression I had gotten was from the previous game in this series, Suikoden III, because in my opinion, it was bad. I regretted buying it.

Now, with 108 characters you can recruit, one can't complain about the lack of characters. (Although, in actual fact, only about 56 can be used in battle.) The only probelm with having so many characters, is that it's hard to make everyone fit well into the story. Some join because someone else they know is on board the ship. Still, I think that's quite a minor problem.

Story wise, it's okay. Nothing too simple or complicated. Gameplay is good. You're sure to be kept busy if you're trying to level them all to 99. Most characters join by just talking to them through the course of the game, while you fight bosses and need to meet certain requirements for others. This, overall, balances out so you won't find recruiting characters boring or a chore. But then again, you only need to use a few of the lot to successfully complete the game.

Definitely one of the better RPGs I've played so far. Planing on trying out Radiata Stories next. Hopefully it'll be good.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Fire... On Fire

Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today. Well, it's yesterday now, seeing it's already 1A.M. About time.

Best of the 4 so far?

Maybe... It's just too bad many they cut out many parts from the book. Like the Quidditch World Cup, all we see is the entrance of the players, and that's it. It jumped straight to the Dark Mark part. What about the part where Rita was turned into a beetle? Well anyway, she isn't too important a character. Just that the book could bring out much much more of her obnoxious ways. More like the Quick Quotes Quill, actually.

Damn. Lot's of nice movies coming up this holidays. Gotta catch 'em all! Ugh... the phrase from Pokemon. And games too. Loads of RPGs going to be released.

Honestly, holidays...

Is there anything else to talk about?

Nope.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Finally Getting Somewhere

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire opens today. Haven't received any messages from friends about watching the movie. Well then, it looks like I'll be going alone, if need be.

Finally got back to leveling bard after months. And thanks to the frequent deaths, white mage sub will be gimped very soon. Now halfway to 71, and luckily I had done genkai 5 earlier.

Ligerzero, did you quit again? That would probably be a yes, considering that he sent me all his gil and some crystals and equipment. But what nice timing! I desperately need the gil for all the expensive bard JSE in another 2 levels.

Rickimaru, Jakal and me went about to do Zilart Mission 5, the parts which required killing mobs. We did the ones in Behemoth's Dominion and through Ifrit's Cauldron. And yes, it was just us three. Something called the "kiting" method, where you cast gravity on the mob, run a distance ahead and nuke, while throwing in the occasional bind. I am the one keeping them refreshed with ballad.

For the ones in Cape Terriggan and Sanctuary of Zitah, we had additional help. A paladin, a monk and a black mage. We handled the mobs perfectly well, despite websites saying that you need a ninja tank.

Time to do the other parts, solo.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sayonara

I've decided to give up on Promyvion-Holla. I'm tired of failing loads of times, of gathering all the people with suitable jobs. I don't want to touble those whom I know. They've done them all, and they don't want to go through all of this again. I understand how they feel. I would rather realize that it is my loss, for not having enough luck or whatsoever, than to make people feel as though I'm so desperate that I forced them to help me.

Went to the airport to send someone off this morning. I guess seeing them leave with a smile doesn't make me feel all that sad. I couldn't cry; tears just wouldn't come out. Not to say that I was happy to see her go, but this sense of joy just came over me, because of, well, some problematic situations going on here. Nothing beats being able to be free of it. Well, Yuni, good luck. Even if I forget you someday, the memory won't be lost, ever. It's deep within your heart; you just have to find it, as Sora of Kingdom Hearts had said.

I returned home in less-than-high spirits.

I just realized. I'm the only asian in the linkshell. You know, maybe I shouldn't be there. If only it wasn't for my first mentor...

You don't need to know.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Nuances

Okay. So we're supoosed to go to this website stated on the math worksheet, and do whatever's inside? Apparantly, it's not working. It says here... it's being hosted in a different location, and they need... donations? That's the most I make out of it. But it comes down to this - I'm not going to do it. Not when you gave us a faulty address to begin with!

So that's one task down. Now I have to type two letters explaining for the day that I was absent for Conquer 'O'. Formal letter format, with parent to initial on it. And the content is just going to be like, two lines.

Feeling kind of depressed today. What is wrong with me? It's not like anything happened.

Logged on to FFXI for a minute or so, noticed how everyone else was perfectly blended in through the chat log. Uh huh, I'm Asian, Singaporean to be more exact. I speak Chinese, and for whatever reason, people in the game have such fear of chinese-speakers. Or loathe them, as a matter of fact. Why indeed? Because, the moment they see Chinese, they associate it with gil-sellers, and gil-sellers are widely hated by people all around. Why again? Because they sell gil, and make the game unfair for everyone else.

Look at all those people with "perfect" gear. Whether they really went through infinite hours of farming or through HNMs, or merely bought the gil, I don't know. No one will know, unless they tell us. But you can be quite sure that someone who completely doesn't know what he is doing, but surprisingly decked out in stuff like Leaping Boots, Emperor Hairpin and such, has most possibly earned them through buying gil. Doesn't mean that just because you have the best gear, you're a good player. That's just wrong.

So I have controlled myself not to speak chinese much outside of the linkshell or tells. In fact, why the hell am I even speaking chinese in the linkshells? No one in there understands chinese. People raise eyebrows when I'm seen PLing chinese players, because the same old thought is in their minds. "That, is a gil-seller. Stay away." Was I wrong in PLing them? Maybe I was, but it never occured to me that they were gil-sellers. I had asked them what was the main reason they play the game, and all they say is because a friend had introduced it to them.

Once I had the chance to meet several chinese players in Valkurm Dunes. And that was when I chanced upon this all Asian Linkshell, a mixture of Singaporeans and other chinese in whatever place. I was rather surprised when I saw the people in there; some of them were notoriously referred to as none other than gil-sellers prior to that, and this is where most of them had gathered.

The most ironic thing was that a fellow chinese player had told me that the Linkshell was "bad". She told me to toss it away. Okay... so unless you're a gil-seller, you will say that it is bad. Thus, the conclusion is that not all chinese players are gil-sellers. (Right. Duh, you might think.)

Enough about that. Now that I've finally taken the chance to just spill everything out, I don't feel that bad inside anymore.

Quote: Tarfur - "We will eat like kings... and there will be cake."

Still laughing to that this very moment. I thank you for your very entertaining statements. Haha.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Hempishere

Really busy for the past few days. Busy playing, heh.

Yes. Soul Calibur III was really worth the money. It's probably the best I've played since SCII.

Right now I've completed "Chronicles of the Sword" once, and going through it a second time with an army of sword master classes. Also unlocked most of the stuff, except maybe some stage arenas and the character, Amy, who is... Raphael's foster daughter?

Haven't really specialized myself with any character, but I guess I'm fairly okay with Killik. Still learning the ropes. Needed more human opponents to practice with, so two of my friends and me did just that. But my friend here was merely button-mashing! And that, I tell you, earns you an easy victory, unless you guard impact ALL of the attacks, which of course, I couldn't manage.

My life seems to dim down quite a bit. Despite it being the holidays, and when I have an online game to keep myself sane and even lower the chances of me talking to myself. Yeah, I'm wierd. But, the maid is going back this weekend, and my father is on frequent business trips overseas, which leaves just three people remaining in the house. No prizes for guessing who. Heh. It's going to be really quiet, or so I think.

FFXI? I don't know what my aim is now. I'm wandering around aimlessly as a rather useless white mage. I stand in front of the Auction House for hours. I teleport people who shout for Holla randomly. I try to chat with people in both Linkshells. I attempt to solo for experience, only to fail miserably. I can't switch back to bard because I have no mood to transfer a massive amount of stuff over from mule. I never get in the mood to party. I reject all invites when I get them.

I shall not rant on. Keep them for another day. Eh heh heh.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Soul Calibur III

I got hold of my copy of the game yesterday.

Hurried to set up my PS2, which involved bringing all the wires, controllers and the console itself from my room out into the hall. Not that I would complain, but I had always left them all in the hall. Ever since my brother was born though, leaving such expensive items lying around is definitely not a wise option. Sometimes I can't even play in peace. He's dying to snatch the controller out of my hands. He's attracted to the lights of the reset button on the console, so much that he's always attempting to press it.

Now that's another thing. So, barely minutes into viewing the new features of the game, I was momentarily distracted by a sharp crackling sound, or at least that's how it sounded like. I didn't know what it was, and resumed with my game. Then it came again. And again for a third time. I looked around, only to catch, in the corner of my eye, the main powerpoint where my PS2 adaptor was connected to, spurting out wisps of black smoke. I was stunned. Then the screen went blank, and at once I rushed over to turn the switch off.

Whoa. That could have resulted in an electric fire! I let everything cool down, before I unplugged the two-pin plug. The plastic of the plug had melted, and one part of it broke off. Oh damn.

Well, at least I managed to get it replaced with a new one this afternoon. $25 for one. Ah, I'm broke. But I must say, the game is really good. Quite the step up from the previous (SCII). The most interesting thing would be the character custamization feature. Pick the gender, job and outfit them with anything you want. Of course, the items are gained through buying and unlocking, only if you have money, which is in turn obtained by fighting through the charaters' story mode. Haven't tried everything yet, so I don't really know about the other stuff in there.

Oh, and failed Promyvion-Holla again. 7 wonderful losses. Hope 8th's time the charm? It is considered a lucky number here at least, right? Luck is so not on my side. And I only did it because whoever didn't invite me for genkai 2. They all asked me to go- no wait, in fact only Schinn and Tarfur asked me to go. So I stood there like an idiot, waiting, waiting and waiting. No invite whatsoever. Basically I got the impression that I wasn't wanted, and there were already 6 people, or so I counted. Someone shouted for holla then, so I jumped in on the chance. It's not my fault, I hope? I was so damn bored...

Well anyway, looks like I'll be waiting, once again. Tomorrow, the day after, and more. With the Conquer 'O' programme ending as late as 1:30pm, it's largely affecting my gaming schedule! "We need to cover the syllabus" is what the teachers say. Okay, okay, I understand. My soft side is giving in.

Lastly, Selemat Hari Raya to everyone out there. Have a nice day... no, night. Heh.

[Edit: It's "calibur" and not "caliber". Sorry.]

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Holidays...?

Today I learned that jack o'lanturns originated from Ireland, and was actually first made out of turnips, not pumpkins!

So while the people in the other parts of the world were probably celebrating Halloween, I was sitting in my room, and confined in there for nearly 12 hours, playing, of course. Well, not really playing, considering that half the time my character was just standing there, in front of the Auction House, with massive amounts of text in linkshell chat, and Jeuno shouts.

Managed to get my white mage up to level 37. Apart from finally being able to teleport, I can really "dump" it off after getting all the crap done. It's just a sub-job for my bard.

School tomorrow, thanks to the whatever conquer 'O' programme they have for us. Having holidays... is like not having it at all.

Baka? Sou dane!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Third Match Loss

The title says as much; we lost the third match of Ballista Royale, against the very, and I mean VERY experienced and skilled players from the team, Darkside.

Well, here I have a screenshot of our team members, which I think is the best taken yet.

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The final score was 6-25. And wow, I didn't at all get a chance to score any petras. They were able to suppress us so well that even when I managed to approach the rook, the "event skipped" occurred due to them hitting me. I was bound countless times, one shoted by Guillotine. The dark knight came after me more often than not. Lullaby, of course, didn't work well enough.

Well, we lost, but at least it's good to see that at least such a strong team exists on Lakshmi. We're all on the same server after all, so all I can say is good luck to them. Lakshmi for the win!

After the match, and after we settled down from the loss, attempted to help Steini with his rank 6-2 mission, which had a rather hilarious result. Turned out that only Windurstians could enter the Burning Circle, and thus only him and Jakal managed to get in. As like anyone else would do, they escaped the place, of course. Death is not an option, with such unfair conditions.

Then, we set up a Promyvion-Dem party, for all those who hadn't completed it. I, of course had done it months back, but I offered to help anyway. It's really fun. After what seemed like a million hours, due to me being unable to teleport, and Jakal falling asleep, we finally got going in the promyvion. First time I ever entered without a summoner. But we didn't really need it anyway.

So we proceeded, only to die on the third floor, due to a stupid aggro from an incredibly tough mob, and a link by another Weeper. The tanks fell fast, and us mages bolted for the exit zone. None of us made it, all except for Tarfur.

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You see, the zone is that glowing circle thing, and we died right on it. Duh.

We regrouped in Jeuno, got back to the promyvion, and this time we were lucky to meet another party doing it as well, so we formed an alliance for the way up to the boss fight. Everything went smoothly then. So was the boss fight. We were slow and steady in taking it down. Didn't have to use Bendiction, which was lucky, considering we didn't have a paladin. Now I see why some parties bring along paladins.

Much fun indeed, but very drained for the entire day, lasting from morning to late afternoon. Thank you everyone.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Bite Me

Today was the first time I ever bowled. And I can be quite sure, I'm not good at it either. Still, it was fun.

My mom's over-reacting over my younger brother. She's keeping a close watch on every of the maid's actions to make sure he's not being treated in a way he should not. I mean, come on! Of all times, now? Just because the maid pulled his ears the other day, she's now completely switched to alert mode.

Had sort of an argument with my dad upon his return from his business trip. I shall not go into details, but you can see how... how fucked up my family is. Yes, I can't believe I'm saying this, but there's no better way to put it.

The sky is falling. Turmoil, catastrophe, chaos, calamity, whatever words, they all fit.

Well, this is me. And there's no getting off this train I'm on.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Full Metal Panic!

Finally done watching Full Metal Panic: The Second Raid.

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With just 13 episodes, the ending seems to be too rushed. Yet somehow everything falls into place nicely in the end, or at least that's what I think.

So in the end, Amalgam was destroyed, when Sousuke made a surprise comeback in the Arbalest after Chidori made him return to his senses. Both the twins and their sensei died, with one being killed by Leonard's A.S., and the other losing her life in the battle with Mr Gates. As for Gaulun, Sousuke shot him to death. Sousuke, of course, got rid of Mr Gates by use of the Lambda Driver.

Sousuke finally realized what was most important to him. He didn't recognize himself as a sergeant anymore, but rather, a mercenery. He requested for him to be posted back to the school with Chidori. So basically it's a happy ending, but Chidori did not manage to express her love for Sousuke even at the end of the episode.

As for my exam results, I've nothing much to say. So far I've failed A Math and Social Studies, which is well, expected. Heh.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Whence Blows the Wind

Congratulations to Heavensfury! We've won the second match of the Ballista Royale, meaning that 2 more victories and we'll be representing Lakshmi!

The match didn't start out quite well, considering that I was the first to die (sob), and the opposing team scored 8 petras right at the start. But, the tide of battle changed, and we were almost always in the lead for the remaining of the match.

Really good teamwork, and according to Sotori, we didn't even have to communicate much. That can't be more true. Later we came up with a tactic, for the white mage to cast invisible on himself and stealthily sneak up to the rook to score once we obtained gate breach status. That worked perfectly. In fact, Raskin, our white mage was the high scorer! Cool stuff.

When I saw that there was 1 minute remaining to the end of the match, I knew that we were going to win for sure. Final score was 35-17. Haha, totally owned, all thanks to our wonderful teamwork, and skill this time round.

At least the opposing team members were sporting losers. So unlike the previous match's losers, where they continued ranting on about how we had won because of luck. Sure, it may be luck, but that just means we were luckier. Hah.

I couldn't help smiling when the match ended. Was in really high spirits, and lost for words. Didn't care that I was going to miss lunch. Our victory ceased my hunger.

I helped out a friend after that for his paladin AF2, which, at first, he died miserably from the pugil's Screwdriver attack. So he zoned back to Jeuno, called for additional help, a 75 thief, and we proceed to whoop the mob easily.

Ligerzero, or Willis, for that matter, has gotten back to play FFXI once again. Full of surprises. He's now an Elvaan warrior. I'm not used to see him as that. Ah, but it's good to have someone that I know play the game. At least, it feels different.

Let's win again next week. Although Raskin said he couldn't make it, we do hope that he could take a half day leave or something. He's the best white mage one could ever meet. And so is everyone else in the team, including the backups for giving their fullest support, heh.

Tomorrow, some concert performance we have to watch, as part of our school's post exams activities. Doesn't seem appealing, but honestly, anywhere outside the school is fine with me.

Guess I'm done with my rants. Until then... see ya.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Rank 5 - Have Wings, Will Fly

When I logged on to FFXI, it felt like I had just started all over again. I didn't know anyone, and I didn't know why I was there. Didn't know the people in the Linkshell, and when I made an attempt in making a remark, there wasn't any response. Friends on my friend list weren't in there, and at least more than half are "dead".

I unequipped it, as I ran around Jeuno, wandering aimlessly. I received plenty of invites, all of which I turned down. I had no mood.

Logged and returned in an hour or so. As I was farming a little with my NPC, Tarfur asked me to go meet him at Windurst. So, after my NPC took his leave, I boarded the airship, forgetting the fact that he could have easily warped to Jeuno.

He traded to me the pearl for Orestia's LS, which is the one almost everyone else I know have been in, since the "conflict". With nothing else to do, we sat around the fountain in Windurst Woods, and just chatted. Here's a screenshot.

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After my quick lunch, I hinted to him about rank 5. I told him that I knew the way, and thus we set off to do it. That really killed my boredom. I never get more joy from doing anything else other than helping people. Rank 5, genkai 3, PLing, you know.

Everything went smoothly. After all, I've done these countless number of times. Maybe I should start working as a guide, lol. But then again, no, I don't want gil involved. It's free! Rid me of my boredom and I offer you any help you need. Within my abilities, of course.

When we finished everything it was like 4:30 A.M. for him. I honestly wouldn't stay up till that time if I have school that morning. But, rank 5, pretty exciting, eh? An airship pass! Who would resist?

Ah, really looking forward to all the new games. Shadow Hearts: From the New World, Grandia 3, Tales of the Abyss, Kingdom Hearts II, Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus, just to name a few. And also, Final Fantasy IV, V and VI for the GameBoy Advance. Can't wait to see how's Full Metal Panic: The Second Raid is going to end, too.

Oh, and I received the codex for Ballista Royale from the NPC. Next scheduled match is on 22 December, 21:00 PDT. Should be correct, considering it appeared as 23 December, 12 noon, Singapore time.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Over and Done With

End of year exams finally ended today. And to think that I wished it never came. At least, it's over now. But the holidays doesn't really start until all the extra lessons are done with. Sigh.

What can I say... Time to kick back, relax and probably return to FFXI full time, if there's even anything to do. Just so happens that the track from Chains of Promathia OST, "Faded Memories-Promyvion" is playing right now. And that reminds me, I've yet to beat the boss in Promyvion-Holla. Four losses so far; kinda gave up already.

I'm tired, but I dont want to sleep. Ah, the irony. Considering how there's no school tomorrow, I might just end up not sleeping... Well, you never know.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Ballista Royale - First Match

For anyone who still doesn't know what this event is about, learn more about it here.

Well, our team, Heavensfury was up against Koden for the very first match. As luck would have it, we won. Barely, I might add. Thanks to Raskin's final petra right at the last second, making us beat them by 1 point. Other than that, it was a fine display of skill from the other usual "ballista"ers. Me? I don't take part in these often.

Felt kind of useless in there without a sub job. Being a bard, I couldn't heal, stoneskin, blink and all that. But I guess that made me realize that ultimately I'm just casting Lullaby over and over. And I scored 4 petras. Not too bad, I guess. Highest scorer was Eneco, with 7 petras. Woot.

And here's a screenshot taken before the match started. Don't blame me for cutting out the other members; I wasn't standing in the centre of the lot and therefore couldn't get everyone in view.

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Only managed to take one, as during the match it was so hectic I couldn't afford to direct my attention somewhere else.

Died twice, the second highest number of deaths next to Raskin. They always go for us mages first. Sigh. I was "Dancing Edge"d, and "Penta Trust"ed if I remember correctly.

Still, we won. And that, is of course a good thing. Oh, and did I mention that I was only a backup team member, only replacing Rick because, because... I don't know. Whatever the reason is. The others weren't too happy about it, of course.

Next week would be the 2nd match, since all the first rounds finishes today. Let's hope we make it all the way to represent Lakshmi server. Tough, but we rock. =P

Peace out.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Midst of Exams

Ah, finally. More than a third of the examintion is over. Just three more subjects, two more days. I can't wait.

Watched Final Fantasy VII: Last Order, the video animation which came with the boxed set of Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children released only in Japan, and is also part of the Complilation of FFVII.

Basically it's about the flashbacks of the events with Sephiroth in Nibelheim and also about Zack's and Cloud escape from Shinra. If you played the game, you'll already know the gist of it.
You don't get to see Zack being shot to death, though. It's the final scene where the screen goes black and all you hear is a gunshot. Bang.

And, Ballista Royale. 18:00 PDT, 15 October. Finally got the time right, I guess, after some calculations.

Gonna go sleep, soon.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Accident Aftermath

My younger brother hit his head while running too fast just awhile back. His forehead is so damn swollen. This is the second time this has happened. The last time, an arguement broke out between my parents. A long one, at that. It lasted all the way to the hospital.

And me? I'm stuck in between.

My father kept asking how he had knocked his head. My mother didn't really see what happened then, as she was behind him while my brother ran into my room. Picture this: someone who keeps asking someone about something she doesn't exactly know. You get a never-ending chain of arguements.

I really don't understand them. Then they're ranting about how they want to leave the house. My father mumbling about how he wants to go on business trips and not be in this house. My mother, has always been saying how she can't take it anymore and wants to leave the house. By this time, I knew I had to do something.

I shouted, in chinese, "Won't you two stop it already! Don't keep pushing the blame all over, the child belongs to both of you!"

That shut them up. And mind you, I was having my dinner at that time. Now I'm drowning myself in music, to get them out of my mind.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Sick, Tired, Dying

I can't find a better day to be sick.

My nose was twitchy this morning. I knew it was acting up, so I brought extra tissue, lol. So there you have it, down with cold the whole day, with a slight fever towards noon. And I couldn't think. My mind was blank one moment, then filled with wierd thoughts the next. Still, really glad that I had anticipated it and got prepared. Well, in a way. There's nothing I can do to stop it anyway. Sigh.

After lunch, I was just too tired. Fell asleep with heaps of tissue at my feet. I wonder where the hell my dustbin went! It isn't there when I need it most.

Well I just woke up, and I don't know whether I even have the appetite for dinner. And there's still my chinese composition and math papers to do by tomorrow. How can I... possibly finish them all in my current state?

Ugh. Feel my pain.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Hmph

Awoke at 7:30 A.M., but turned out that there wasn't any ballista practice. So me sleeping early had all come down to nothing. Well I ended up PLing Raskin's party at Yuhtunga Jungle. Besides the usual healing, I saved lots of lives from a large number of Goblin Smithys being zoned. Heh.

Math tuition prevented me from staying longer, though. Argh, that's why I hate it, my Sundays are entirely occupied by tuition. I'm glad this year is coming to an end.

Exams in a week. Yikes.

Just finished dinner(yes, at 11:30P.M.) and I'm about to turn in for the night.

Later.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Ballista Royale? Warau

So, in preperation for the upcoming Ballista Royale, our LS is holding practices in Diorama Abdhaljs-Ghelsba. But me, being here in Singapore, and them in America, the timing doesn't ever work out. It's either too late or too early. And that's also the reason I'm unable to join any HNM LS. What I can join are the Japanese ones, but then, I don't understand Japanese well enough.

Did I piss someone off when I said "Don't care about me, you all go on ahead"? Because my name is on the team list, I'm being treated with importance as much as everyone else. But no, I don't want to affect everyone else and delay the practices to a time which becomes inconvenient for them instead. Besides, I only signed up to be a backup. I was on the verge of saying "well then, kick me out". Then again, we don't even know if we're chosen yet, why worry so much?

As much as I know I'm not going to make it though, I'm going to try. I always have problems waking up early. Two, or even three alarm clocks won't work. Which is why, I'm going to bed extremely early tonight, or at least it's early for me. I'm aiming for 9:30 P.M.

Heh. And I haven't even bathed or taken dinner yet. Better get on to it.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Tired

I want to watch D.N.Angel, especially after listening to the opening theme. What a great song. I don't have enough money to buy the anime, but I guess I'll get the chance to watch it soon, hopefully. A friend's friend has it, so maybe she could borrow it for me.

Really having very little sleep this week, or so I consider it to be. I seem to be suffering from insomnia or something. Total number of hours of sleep so far this week is 10 hours. Meh. That's quite a lot actually. It could be much much lesser than that.

Havent studied Chemistry. I don't really know. I keep telling myself to turn in early and I might just end up staying up till 1 or 2. No, I can't let it happen today. I'll just glance through the main points and study the rest tomorrow. Besides, Mrs. Tan did say she was going to give us 1 period to study anyway.

And A Math Trigonometry is driving me crazy. I'd better go for the consultation tomorrow. I don't want to fail the next test. I can't.

Oh, and here's a small screenshot of FFXI, for anyone who have not seen it before. Though if you like FF, I certainly doubt so.

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I'm none other than the one playing music. =P

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Stop Dreaming Already

I don't really know what to say, but since I'm so bored at this hour. Guess I shall recall how I had met friends on FFXI.

Idontknow, the male Tarutaru I met the very first day I started playing, at South Gustaberg. I had chosen Bastok because I liked the music there, heh. Really grateful to him for teaching me all the basics I needed to know, and for leveling with me up till about level 10 or so. Found out that he had one other character called Dikar, a hume male. Sometime later on, he "disappeared". Only upon his return about 2 months later did we find out that his house had been destroyed a tornado, in Florida. He then stopped playing as Idontknow as we were all so high levels then.

Axl, the hume male I first saw at Danguf Wadi when I was playing as thief. The second time I went in there with Idontknow, spotted him again. I said hi, and he told us he was apparantly lost. So we worked our way out together. We ventured out to Konshtat Highlands, the first time I had ever been that far. He introduced to me a group called The Pillows, which well, I'm a fan of them now, and really grateful to him. He's also the first person to tell me that my character name, Usagimaru, actually means male rabbit, or could also mean rabbit tail or meatballs, haha. He said once that his father knows the people of SquareEnix, and may work there sometime. Born in Japan, and currently living in the USA, I think. Well, now he doesn't play anymore. Good luck to him.

Finnh, male hume, whom I first met in Valkurm Dunes, at level 13. The first we just happened to be in the same party. Didn't really talk much at that time. The second time was different though, as we had more chance to converse within a party which lasted extremely long. Turned out that he was rather friendly, and we became friends just like that. Really nice guy, living in New York. Never really managed to party with him again at higher levels, but we managed to get Mission 2-3 done together. Seldom see him these days, but he does come on once in a while.

Sotori, a fellow hume male thief, ahah. First met him at Valkurm Dunes. He never talked much to begin with, but we added each other to our friend lists anyway. We got our Palborough Mines keys for Kazham Airship Pass at the same time. Kinda lost contact with him later on, but somehow got back through the LS, TheFatedOnes, which was created by Dikar. I think, somehow, all my friends were revolved around this LS.

Martind, hume male, playing as red mage when I first met him at Kazham. He lives in Holland but isn't Dutch, actually. Born in Africa, north or south, I forgot. Real name is Martin. XD Well, I was waiting for a party, which was really rare at that time of the day. He happened to be doing the same thing. We were both standing at the exit to Kazham, as bored as can be. This caused us to kill time by talking to the ony other person around, I guess. We played "Hide and Seek" inside Kazham, lol. Became friends after that. Somehow, he also got into the same LS, TheFatedOnes. What a coincidence.

Steini, hume male. Only got to know him through the LS. Always calling people "Jew", heh. Only later when we all switched to the LS, Genocyde did we get to know him better. Well, he being the leader, of course. Still remember the time when Martin and I said that "Steini's actually a nice guy, if u know him well enough". Ahah. He quit in May this year, but as his friend wanted someone to play with, offered to pay for his bills, thus he returned in July. Always longing that I can fly to America sometime, lol. I wonder?

Well, I guess that pretty much sums up all the main peeps I know. Of course there are more, but I havent really gotten to know them much and anyway, if I listed them all there would be too many. =P

Friday, September 23, 2005

Nice Time To Be Sick

Got a cold, again. Damn sinus.

I couldn't concentrate on doing the tests today. My mind completely blanked out during the chinese test as I used pieces of tissue paper one after another. Forty pieces barely managed to last me through the hour and a half.

Biology test was slightly better, as I had spent the previous night doing notes. Turns out that writing the points out is indeed quite effective. But some facts did slip off my mind though. Then again, maybe I just didn't know.

I don't care if I flunk them. I was sick. SICK.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

You Know Who You Are

Why must you be so unreasonable,
at very little thing.
Doesn't matter if it's right or wrong
as long as you don't like it.
You don't even find out the truth.

You're pessimistic.
You don't take what others say into consideration.
Complainin' all day, about how unfair life is.
You think you're the only one!?
Have you ever thought about
how the others around you are feeling?

You don't listen to others.
You expect others to listen to you?
And you blame them for not helping you
in any way,
when you don't even let them in the first place?
And not showing any gratitude?

Why?
You're... different.
You've changed, and you know it.
And I...

I hate you for that.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

Well, I bought Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. Cost me $79, damn expensive.

But it was totally awesome. Really, what an amazing animated movie. Ah, good work, SquareEnix. Keep 'em games comin'.

As much as it was good though, I couldn't really understand what they were saying. they spoke in Japanese, and there were no English subtitles. Heh, but who needs subtitles when you have the amazing graphics and action packed scenes to keep you drawn in anyway. Gotta love Tifa and Cloud. Oh, and everyone else. Heh heh.

And I changed blogskin again... didn't quite like the second one I had chosen. Everything here's revolving around Final Fantasy VII, eh?

Well anyway, look at the time, argh. I must be off.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Depression

Just tell me what the hell is going on.

Why do people try to kill themselves...
Think they can just slit their wrists and die?
Or better still just jump down,
or the painless method,
excessive consumption of pills.

What are you trying to do here?
There's no logic behind all this.

Think about it.
We are dying from the moment we are born.
If we know that we're going to die in the end anyways,
why are we still here?

Did you ever truly live?
Or are you just here because you are... just here?

Sure there are reasons behind all these...
Just because of a setback,
goals failed in life,
lost love...
We see no point in carrying on.
Just end it.

And we continue living on beacuse it's good?
Having a good life?
Or that our life is just ups,
and no downs?

You honestly think so?

It's just complicated...
You might understand,
you might not.
But I know for sure.

I don't.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Maat Masher

Finally got hold of Good News For People Who Love Bad News by Modest Mouse.

Looked around the store for any The Pillows albums. Search results - Negative. =(

And woot, defeated Maat for genkai 5. Ahahaha. Thanks to those who lent me their equipment.

It wasn't that bad actually. Not as bad as I thought it to be. Maat was hitting me for close to 100 and i was dealing about 30 damage on average and 40+ for criticals. The only WS Maat used against me was One-Inch Punch, which missed. Heh heh. With Soul Voice and double Paeon, keeping HP high wasn't much of a problem.

Basically just finalled Maat's Minne, Cyclone, used an Icarus Wing followed by another Cyclone. Skillchain: Detonation. Then just whacked all the way till the end.

And ugh... school reopens on next Monday. Gonna be bored to death by it, or get stressed until I just blow up. Either way, not fun. =(

Monday, September 05, 2005

Holidays...

Went to watch "One More Chance", the new Jack Neo film, with Willis, Guang Sheng, Clarence, Mao Kun and Aloysius Yuen at Jubilee.

Haha. More like a 6B gathering with 2 extra people.

The movie was not bad. Funny, and touching at certain parts. It's mainly about giving ex-convicts a second chance. Yeah, totally. People need to be more understanding, damn it. Don't discriminate them, like people always do.

We went to the arcade before and after the movie. I mean, where else could we possibly go to?

And the game I always play is Guilty Gear XX2 Reloaded. I'm not exactly pro at it, but whatever. It's fun, and that's all I care.

Had dinner, and went home.

Almost died of boredom. Man, there's nothing to do. I'm tired yet I don't want to sleep, and I'm too lazy to get up from my chair. The most I do is walk around the house, and it doesn't give me much space anyway.

Well, at least listening to Mikuni Shimokawa keeps me sane. Yes, the wonderful singer who performed all opening and ending themes for the 3 current Full Metal Panic series.

Well, itte kimasu... ja ne.

Friday, September 02, 2005

End of Term

Meh. They should have just made this particular Friday a holiday.

Okay, anyway during S.S. period, there were two boxes at first, one for rubbish, and the other for some numbers. We were like, so fixed upon picking out numbers that we totally forgot about the lesson. Naturally, she came over. So, she was like staring at us. We were silent. And then she asked what we were doing. I said "Dustbin". XD Apparantly she thought I called her a dustbin. Yeah, right. So I pointed out that 2 dustbins lay in front of us. Then she crushed them up into a pile and ordered them to be thrown away. I insisted that they were only to be cleared at the end of the day. Futile, though. Heh, whatever.

Chinese lesson sucked. Period.

And wow, Steini actually remembered I asked him for a poem much much earlier today. 1:30A.M. actually. I told him it had to be something about life. He said that he had once written a song for guitar for a girl, but they got into a fight, so it's worthless to him now. I said yeah sure I'll take a look. Really cool. Not a poem exactly, but I'm going to change parts of it. It's the poem for Literature, ugh!

dawn is a seed planted in the sky
dusk is the time that seed will die
day is the time i was thought to live
night is the time i am born again

the sun shone brightly
as it burned the sky

she dries her tears
as i start to die

our years were short
but our conscience clean

my time best spent
if spent with you

and our lives
and our loves

our memories
and what i've learned
through your laugh and your smile
what changes
when we change
but you and i will
we'll always remain the same

- Steini

Can't thank him enough...

Thursday, September 01, 2005

I Don't Know

It started,
two days ago.
He sent me a voice clip.
I couldn't receive it.
Updated, installed, the usual.
Asked him to test it;
it worked.
And then,
he initated a voice conversation.
For a moment there,
I couldn't say a word.
I don't know why,
I just feel

Wierd.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Modest Mouse - The View

Your gun went off.
Well you shot off your mouth and look where it got you.
My mouth runs on too.
Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
Well now here's the clue.
Life it rents us.
And yeah I hope it put plenty on you.
Well I hope mine did too.
As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
then I feel pretty blissfully.
Your gun went off.
Well you shot off your mouth and look where it got you.
My mouth runs on too.
Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
Well now here's the clue.
We are fixed right where we stand.
Life it rents us.
And yeah I hope it put plenty on you.
Well I hope mine did too.
We are fixed right where we are.
As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well if feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.
For every invention made how much time did we save?
We're not much farther than we were in the cave.
As life gets longer, awful feels softer,
and it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.
If life's not beautiful without the pain,
well I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again.
Well as life gets longer, awful feels softer.
And it feels pretty soft to me.
For every good deed done there is a crime committed.
We are fixed.
For every step ahead we could have just been seated.
We are fixed.
As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.
We are fixed.
We are fixed.
We are fixed right where we stand.
Awesome song, eh?

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Nothing much, really

I awoke with my router at my feet. Whoa, what's it doing there? Turned out that i fell asleep last night without keeping it. Was so damn tired. Didn't sleep well for the whole week. Now the weekends is the only time I can catch up with my sleep.

No piano lesson today, as the teacher had something on. Woot! For once, my Saturday is education-free.

Basically played FFXI and ROSE the entire day. There was so much lag at ROSE, I couldn't even keep count of the times I died. Gave up at 50% to level 37, and went on to FFXI.

I was kind of surprised when Steini said that Sotori kicked them (him and Tarfur and Zenigata) out of the LS, theiveZguild. He actually did such a thing!? (Well, only the leader has the authority to kick pearlsackers out, of course) I really don't understand what's going on.

I switched back to Genocyde when Tarfur told me that they were in there. Sure am glad I didn't toss my sack back then. It holds too much valuable memories, anyway. Eneco got back his pearl too.

I thought it was kinda crazy in the thieveZguild where EVERYONE was pearlsacked. And not just that, people from all over the server was streaming in. I'm not saying that having more people is a bad thing, but it's just that there's to sense of "control" anymore. People get invited as and when someone liked. I don't even know half of them in there. So, yeah. It feels out of place.

Well, i logged soon after and just talked to Steini for the rest of the afternoon on MSN. He's from America, but he didn't feel like sleeping then. He revealed his real name, and I learned something about Asperger's Syndrome from the conversation.

Well, fiddled with the camera and took some pictures of myself and my brother, and uploaded them on to the Genocyde Website. And now I feel bored again. Guess i'm done for now.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Warning, Long Post Alert

I haven't really been doing anything much lately. Yeah sure there were the holidays and all, but it just seems so boring, same stuff all day long. Even my ps2 has been somewhat "dumped" aside because my parents decided on getting a new TV and there's this stupid problem with it. The screen enlarges itself at times and the images disappear out of the damn screen. All the games I play, especially the RPGs, are affected because of this, because the status bars are always at the bottom of top and are largely affected. Well I've kinda given up on that, and since the long-awaited RPGs won't be out until late this year or so, I'll wait until then.

And then there was NOMAD, which is held in our school this year. And we, the MEP students are the lucky ones to get chosen to be in the "wonderful" transit lounge section of the performance. Lucky? Yeah, right. Anyway, thinking back, it wasn't so bad after all. It's just that the grand piano didn't seem quite well suited where it stood, where it was so noisy, and we couldn't hear what we were playing.

So now, I'm playing R.O.S.E. Online, the MMORPG, similar to Maplestory, or sea or global or watchamacallit. Only difference is that its 3-D, and I think the gameplay itself is much much better. One downside though, it lags quite a bit at major leveling areas, so much that u could be fighting a monster one moment, and you'll find yourself dead once it stops lagging, just because you couldn't heal yourself in time. Ugh, gotta hate that. But it's free, at least, and it's really good despite all that.

I can go on and on... gotta stop myself now, I guess. Gotta study for Biology test tomorrow, though I think I won't actually do it...

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Coffer Key Madness

Yeah yeah...not done anything in ages. But well, exams are over, and thats a good sign. FFXI situation seems to have improved. =) While farming, I got invited to a manaburn pt. 5 BLMs and a BRD, and exp was awesome. Got a whopping 20k exp in like 4 hours. Ballista was fun as usual, though the team I'm on never seems to win. Ah and then the major thing that night was getting Evan's coffer key. Took like 1 hour or so to set up the party, and a further 3 hours to get 5 keys. It might seem fast, but...well because the BLM warped him too fast, and also cause the others didn't pass on the key.. Yep, he lost it. So all that was wasted, also the pt disbanded the moment everyone warped, and we didnt manage to do that again. Man he was pissed. Well anyway, hope to get my key today. I want the pants ; ; Ok, just hope that everyone taking a break returns to FF soon...

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Exams...

That's right exam starts tomorrow. And yet i can't even get in the mood to study. Sigh. Wonder what's up with me. Been acting all wierd this year. Well all i can do is try my best, even if it doesn't work out, at least i tried. =P Heard from MaoKun that we could meet up with MsTan for biology. Hope that it does take place, and that it helps.

usAG

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

sick sick SICK!!

Bahh, been sick de whole day. Simply...frustrating. Not enough tissue even. 13 packets this time. highest record was 16 heh XD. And after Music already 6pm, just fell asleep in bed. Woke at 8, no appetite. Argh stupid nose. >< Juz hope i'll get better soon.

usAG

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

The very 1st

Well, my 1st post! Hahax Been spendin whole night doin this heh. Will try to update regularly bah. Am totally new at this, so please leave comments or whatever. Plus theres a wholelot of stuff i dunno, so please bear with me^^;; Also, exams comin, sigh. Stress and whatnot is returnin...ok guess i'll to this again tomolo.

usAG