Atonalism

Sometimes it's pretty strange to think about things in images, rather than words. My memory tends to always replay scenes in images. Certain scenes often playback clearly in my mind.

The airplane incident when I was like 5 years old, on the way to Hong Kong.

The nightmare I had when I was 6, which involved yet another image "forming" in my mind.

The event 2 years ago, which made me afraid of him.

There're many others, but some of these remain the most significant.

I need to focus. My piano exam's coming, and I am not improving, at least the way I see it. It lacks... Emotion.

I haven't thought about what I'd do in future. I cannot see much happening.

Maybe this dissonant piece isn't helping. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe it's both.

I should go to sleep.

Silence

I can't really sleep. I have to be up at 7 everyday but I can't even get to sleep until 2, at least. I don't really know why this is the case.

I'm on the verge of losing my voice, for a bit. Since Saturday's barbeque my voice has become really hoarse. It's been on and off though, so I'm not sure how it would be.

If you haven't noticed already everything I've said thus far expresses a certain level of uncertainly. I'm not even sure about what I'm doing in school recently. There's been a few nice people that I've met, but the school work's really a chore. It's almost impossible.

It's only 12:50AM right now. I have about an hour. Maybe I'll listen to Swan Lake and Persona 4 OST and maybe, just might be able to get to sleep. I don't know.

Bethena: A Concert Waltz

I've been somewhat confused as to what I have been doing.

Since the last project ended it was just more or less studying for exams. And there were only 3 papers, no big deal. I guess the third year sort of looms ahead rather menacingly. Our break has been reduced to a pathetic 5 days becuase of it, which starts today, incidentally. I'm not going to plan anything, since most of it would be used for catching up on sleep anyway.

I was afraid that my piano exam and my final year project would clash at some point. I mean, I already signed up for it, and since I just knew that I was dispatched to the dreaded "fish tank" (project area), it's not very good news for my schedule. I just hope I don't end up failing my exam or something, since the fees are up to a thousand dollars. Also, next year's syllabus is different, so I'd have to change my repertoire, and that means more time wasted to learn new songs.

The way I look at it, there just isn't enough time. Perhaps I worry too much. I don't know.

Presto - The Rush

There won't be anything new for about another week or so.

Chinese New Year was just 2 days ago, and then we gotta make the mad rush for our semester project. Deadline's Monday and I haven't really done anything. At this point, I'm just aiming to pass, but definitely not at the expense of my group members. If there's anything needed done so they don't get penalized I'll have to do it.

Thank you, procrastination.

Finale

I'm just gonna rush in a post before the end of the year.

I had a bacteria infection last week for the most part. Must've been all the raw salmon sushi I ate within a period 2 days. It fucked up my stomach real bad so everything I ate got rejected. Had a fever along with it too.

I'm on a 2 week break currently, which ends today, sadly. I got sick, that's one week down, and then the second week we had our guitar rehearsals and performance, so another half a week down. Remaining days were left for games and school work.

I just started playing some FPS games recently, and while I suck at FPS, I do find it rather enjoyable.

Well, Happy New Year in advance to anyone reading this.

Something or Another

I'll be honest - I forgot what I wanted to say here.

That is all.

The Search

So, I sprained my foot for the first time in my life yesterday. Goddam vein just kept throbbing and the pain wouldn't go away. By night, I couldn't walk.

I took a day off from school and consulted a chinese doctor. When it comes to these things, they do so much better. Right now it's already getting better, though I can't walk too fast, which is a pain because I'm used to walking fast.

Shadow popped up on MSN for the first time in like 9 months. It certainly was good to see him again and to know that he's now an officer of a huge guild on WoW after being kicked by Nadia and Eneco. He's a nice guy so I don't really know what happened, he wasn't quite sure either. Regardless, they're all now enjoying WoW, and Xeo too. He recently got his mage to 80.

Anlec server on Warhammer died hard, as Tux put it. With the recent free transfers out of Anlec, he moved his Sorcerer to Ironclaw. After chancing upon him in Vent, I moved my Zealot over as well. My other characters remain until I figure out what to do with them.

Warrior Priest

Sigmar's Blessings!

I've been playing a Warrior Priest on Skull Throne recently because a couple of my friends decided to try Order.

Generally, I'd say Warrior Priest is rather fun. It's quite challenging in a sense, but once you get used to it it's not all that bad. The first few levels are really a pain to get through because your heals are terrible and you die fast(but then again most classes die fast at low levels).

It's a nice change from playing a backline healer. There's much more involvement, and you really have to stay focused to keep people up. Most importantly, you're really hard to take down. Comparing to non-melee healers survivability is far superior.

Currently at rank 16 I'm Salvation spec'd but I'm thinking on going Grace later on, especially when 1.06 goes live with the upgrades to Prayer of Devotion and melee heals.

This serves as a good distraction until the Black Guard is released, which I'm really looking forward to.

Two

Don't ask me about the title. I'm merely putting these numbers because my recent posts all had numbers as their title.

Last I heard, my friend has 2 papers left for 'A' levels, which ends tomorrow, I think.

Secondly, HY is going to play Warhammer today, according to "King".

And, twice. It happened twice.

Don't mind the subtleties.

Seventy-seven

He stared at the clock intently. In just a few seconds he would make his move. He was neither nervous nor fazed; his face emanted a hint of confidence - almost smug. His hands slowly clenched into a fist, as several drops of pespiration trickled down the side of this face. Not drops of anxiety, but of heat. It was hot. The room, though big, was bursting full with people. The doors were closed. To him and everyone else in the room, it was almost hard to breathe.

His gaze never left the clock as the last few seconds ticked by. He did a mental countdown as he continued to stare fixatedly at the clock. Three, two... one. In that final second he jumped up to his feet and made a mad dash for the furthest door in the room. His eyes were now focused on the door. He wrenched the door handle and with the momentum he had built up with the sprint, flung open the door with explosive force. As he took his first steps out of the room, almost everyone had their heads turned at his direction. He felt emancipated.

The door now began to close. He left three others that he knew behind in the room. They did not move from their seats; they kept staring at his slowly waning figure as he distanced himself from the room with his widened steps. Them, and the remaining seventy-three people.

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Just my lousy attempt at writing something after like, what, 2 years? It's probably rather bad, but meh, it's a start. AA's posts inspired me to do this, but in no way does this compare to his. I'd probably write some more if I bother, and if I remember to.

Four

This is the forth week into the semester. And forth is right, because in chinese it's also a pun for "die".

There has already been a shitload of things to do, and there are more to come. This semester is just so heightned up in terms of workload and presentations. Still, I don't think it can compare to the stress levels of our 'A' level friends.

I heard Biology so far screwed people over pretty bad. All I can say is best of luck for that and hope the remaining papers somehow salvage the situation? I don't know, don't really know how it works.

Not much more to go, so here's hoping you all live through it.

Some big patches and the public live test server coming soon on Warhammer Online. Looking forward to that.

And then I said about how I'd write about how Mister D ate beef, but really, there's nothing to talk about at all.

There's also something I've always sworn to talk about everytime I'm on my way for my piano lessons, but never did. Perhaps I'll deal with it another day.

And sleep still stalks me.

Xarcabard, The Land of Truths

Alone through the snow you walk.

17 measures of music surround you. It goes on like an ostinato; you're awaiting the Da Capo al Coda.

Does it ever arrive?

Perhaps you heard it, perhaps you didn't. Perhaps you weren't even waiting for the end. You just tell yourself there's only a few more measures to go.

You continue to trudge along the snow, thinking.

Thinking about how you didn't use Teleport-Vahzl to get there.

Stagnation of Ideas

So...

While a couple of my friends have been posting witty stuff or generally thought-invoking posts, myself here has been posting shit, if you were to compare.

Okay, self-dissing and comparison aside, I still find things I write... lacking, somewhat. I don't know, I've never been able to come up with something good ever since 2 years ago.

Just the other day I sat down with a notepad and pen in my hand. I held the pen above the notepad, ready to write when something came through my mind. Half an hour went by, I almost fell asleep, and all I could come up with were all the spells in FFXI which had a sleep effect. That's not even original material!

Funny thing is that teachers used to comment that I loved to express myself through my writings. Yeah, a few years later this person can't even pen down half a paragraph of ideas.

Poly and IT has ruined one of my few interests. I'm sure of it.

The Light Slayer

I made a Sorcerer on Warhammer last night, and was once again stumped as to what to name the character.

After some I thought I decided on "Slayeroflight". A sorcerer is probably the closest thing to a Black Mage anyway, and that's exactly what he played. His name ended with dark though, so why light? Because I'm on Destruction's side, and to go against the good(light) fits here. Also, he had a mule's(I think) name ending with light.

Not that I really wanted to steal the name...

Something's just lacking when you're not playing a game with your best friends.

Yet Another Prelude

I can't sleep.

But even though I'm here, the inspiration to write doesn't come. I think I'm now far worse with words than I once was, be it written or spoken. Though I can't say I've really been good with words, at all.

(Gets a mind block for about 5 minutes...)

New semester at school. Same old shit all over again. Not so much gut hating this time around, but it's somewhat evident in a few. Not that I care much, but how do people actually continue like this, I'd like to know.

Playing a healer in Warhammer sometimes makes you feel like shit because... people die in RvR. I guess the mindset carried over from FFXI has affected me, because in an FFXI party, you don't let people die. Of course sometimes shit happens, but generally you don't let anyone die.

And in Warhammer, well, you simply cannot save someone who is being focused fired, unless there's a few other healers healing that person as well. It's funny that you play a healer to heal, and yet in such situations you're simply too helpless to do anything to save them, except wait until they die to resurrect.

I don't really know what else to say right now. Mind's pretty empty. I guess it wasn't such a good idea to type someth- No, actually it was a good idea. It made me sleepy.

Horrifying Visions

Holidays have this effect on me.

I mean, sure, no one would complain about having a one month break, but I don't know, sometimes this boredom makes you wish you weren't on break.

Haven't been listening to music at all lately. Made my head kinda empty, I think. Only now do I open up Windows Media Player.

And I'm only here because the Warhammer servers are down for maintenance. I haven't mentioned it, but that's what I'm playing now, because Xeo and I got bluffed into believing that it wasn't seperated into NA and EU. It was only after I bought the game that I realized how it actually was.

So I'm left to play it on my own, with a couple of friends (we don't really do things together though).

We had our class chalet 2 days ago, and a couple of us didn't sleep the entire day. I came back at 9 in the morning, and decided to wait till evening to sleep. And to my horror I woke up after 3 hours.

Sleep is stalking me right now. Which makes me wonder, what the hell am I still doing here at 4 A.M.?

Level Sync

Well, I got Puppetmaster to 56 few days ago. Most of it, in fact all the parties have been level sync'd ones. My only complaint is that I cannot cap my skills when I level in a party sync'd way below my current level.

First level sync party in Qufim.

Levelled Warrior a bit as well for my sub job.

A 5 Puppetmasters and 1 Ninja party in the dunes.

And apart from levelling, I did some Nyzul Isle assaults, ZNM fights and lots of farming.

I recently got my hands on Poulenc's Nocturnes, and have been practising Nocturne No.1 in C major like crazy. I'd been looking for this one for a while now.

Speaking of piano, next year's diploma exam syllabus is going to have some changes. If the Britten piece I'm playing doesn't get through I might want to try some of those Poulenc pieces listed, I don't know.

And just to be a little pessimistic here, less than one month of break left.

Irresponsible Adventurer

Update's going on right about now, then we get level sync after.

Xeo's been leveling Summoner on Quay. So we got him his Carby mitts the other day.

He's finally reached my Puppetmaster's level range and we partied with some other members of Deosil just two days ago.

I've been looking at the latest attachments, namely Coiler and Steam Jacket, which were added in June or something. So much gear and stuff to get, so much more farming I need to do. And my Warrior is only 26, so I need to level that sometime as well.

Also, I was PLing Xeo and Wak last week and he lent me some stuff to use. Among them was the pricey Vermillion's Cloak, with Wak's signature on it. It was probably the first and last time I'd ever wear one.

September Update

And so this semester's exams are over. It's already been a week so I'm probably not going to talk about it.

I finally got a new desktop PC after 6 years. I stayed up till morning just waiting for the FFXI updates again; was kind of eager to try it out on widescreen.

I think FFXI is finally giving a worthy update after so long. Level sync, as they call it, which allows you to level down(not delevel) to a lower level player's level temporarily and be able to fight and gain experience normally. Probably one of the nice additions with accordance to the new level sync system is the way they're going to scale down the current gear you have equipped when you level down so there's the option to not switch gear and of course, all the space we can free up by selling our low level gear.

Another thing I like is the option to keep beastmen seals with an NPC. That's really going to be a lot more free slots.

And uh, when Xeo and Wak get to 49 I'm gonna static with them on puppetmaster, I think.

Sheep Go To Heaven

The moment you're born you start dying, so you might as well...

Have a good time!!

Hahaha.