Sayonara

I've decided to give up on Promyvion-Holla. I'm tired of failing loads of times, of gathering all the people with suitable jobs. I don't want to touble those whom I know. They've done them all, and they don't want to go through all of this again. I understand how they feel. I would rather realize that it is my loss, for not having enough luck or whatsoever, than to make people feel as though I'm so desperate that I forced them to help me.

Went to the airport to send someone off this morning. I guess seeing them leave with a smile doesn't make me feel all that sad. I couldn't cry; tears just wouldn't come out. Not to say that I was happy to see her go, but this sense of joy just came over me, because of, well, some problematic situations going on here. Nothing beats being able to be free of it. Well, Yuni, good luck. Even if I forget you someday, the memory won't be lost, ever. It's deep within your heart; you just have to find it, as Sora of Kingdom Hearts had said.

I returned home in less-than-high spirits.

I just realized. I'm the only asian in the linkshell. You know, maybe I shouldn't be there. If only it wasn't for my first mentor...

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